After Happily Ever After

Amity Blight

My eyes slowly open to the cracks of sunlight seeping through my window. My head throbs and my heart bangs against my chest as I begin to process my surroundings. Well, I'm in my  room and it's 10:35 am according to my clock. I'm questioning how the fuck I got here in the first place. Wasn't I at a party? Luz' s  party, if I remember correctly. So how did I get here? 

Wait, that was last night, wasn't it? The events of last night flood my head. I was drinking. We were at her house, Well the owl house. Then something happened. I did something bad, didn't I? I see flashes of Luz that bore into my memories. My memories are blurry and I can't differentiate them from my dreams. Luz isn't happy in these memories, I realise. She's hurt. She's angry. She's crying.

I made Luz cry.

But what did I  do?

My head feels like it's spinning and it's hard to even sit up. So I just stay lying down. I conclude that this is what it's like to have a hangover. There's this burning in my throat and my eyeballs feel like they could roll to the back my head. My stomach curls, making me clutch my belly and groan. The ache in my shoulders don't help either. Events of last night slowly began to surface in my head. 

'Amity, we have been over this several times. I love you. That's not going to change if I make some new friends there. Is that's what bothering you? Do you think that I will let some witch ruin our relationship and choose them over you? Do you seriously not trust me at all?'  Her voice echos.

'I do trust you!' I insisted.'It's them I don't trust. They could hurt you somehow-'

'How?!' She cut me off. Her arms stretched out angrily as She leant forward to glare at me.'How is some with that I might be friends with going to hurt me?!'

'They might hurt us!' I snapped.'It's all just bullshit! You're so calm about going to uni and don't seem to care that everything is changing! And now you're probably going to break up with me and be with someone else!'

'Are you fucking serious?!' She yelled.'You must be dense or something to think that I'm going to break up with you over a fucking school! Do you even fucking hear yourself right now?! Why can't you just be happy for me?! Yes we're growing up! That's life! Quit being such a pussy, Amity, and grow the fuck up! You are not fourteen anymore! I'm going to University on Monday and that's just how it is! Whether you come live with me is up to you! Do not come at me and act like I'm the problem when I have been patient and loving towards you the entire time! In fact I have doing this bullshit with you for the past FOUR FUCKING YEARS!'

 'Have you been pretending this whole time?' I asked.

'What?!' She glared.

'Have you been pretending to love me?' I  said tearfully.

She lowered her voice, venom in her tone. 'Why would I pretend to love you. You fucking dumbass. Of course I love you. I'm just really really pissed at you right now.'

'Yeah Well I'm pissed at you too. You're such a dickhead, Luz.' I said through my tears.

She took  a step back, shaking her head. 'Yeah well you've been a real bitch tonight, Amity.'