ANUGAAMINI- The Boundaries

63. Weltschmerz

"Vanraj wait....", Ishika held his head away. He looked desperate for her and passionate like she had never seen him before.

"I love you too......", she said and kissed him harder. He pushed her against the dining table, moved her hair from her neck and kissed her there all along nibbling on it. When they parted, they looked dishevelled. Breaths heavy.

He scooped her up and set her on the table and spread her legs. She moaned when he crushed his lips on her cleavage visible through her deep neck top. Her satin night suit lower was making her feel more aroused.

She moaned again when he pressed himself over her body. He wished to never stop hearing these moans that sound so much better and were also helping in blocking the sounds of Anupamaa's sobbing that occupied his head.

The louder she moaned the more frivolously he would touch her. He pressed his palm between her thighs.

"Aaahh.....".

His palm moved slowly crushing satin underneath, making them both feel more aroused. He moved his fingers along and she held his wrist.

His pulled back his hand and took off her night shirt. Her black bra was in front of his eyes. He gulped and before he could attack hungrily she put a finger on his lips and pointed in a direction. "Take me to my bedroom....."

He scooped her up, walked her in and latched the door from inside.

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"NAHIII....", Anupamaa shrieked and her eyes fell wide open. She was gasping for breath and she covered her cheek again. Her lips trembled as she dreamt of him slapping her again for a miniature of a mistake.

Little Samar had his eyes wide open and he looked frozen at the shriek. She clung him to her shoulder and he started pawing her breasts again.

She checked the time. It was 1:00 am.

And nobody woke her up. She remembered hearing Leela asking Dolly to not give her food till Vanraj was back. She guessed Dolly was standing with a plate on the other side of the door but Leela snatched the plate, hurled a word or two at Anupamaa and took the plate away.

Anupamaa though was so much in sleep that she couldn't get up to open the door even when Dolly knocked.

Now again she felt hungry but there was nothing and she couldn't eat till Vanraj eats.

She put the baby to feed on her again. She pressed her breast to drain herself to the last drop. "Pata ni ye kitni der me aayenge.... Abhi bhi mujhse naraaz hain kya... Par maine kiya kya tha.... Jo mujhe maara....", her eyes swelled. "Maine to baat bhi ni ki jaada unke dost se...", She touched her braid. "Baal bhi khule ni the mere... Phir kyun maara mujhe...", she shut her eyes and cried.

"Main kaise samjhaaun inhe... Maine kuch galat ni kiya hai... Main kisi aur ko galat bhaavna se chhoo ni sakti... Chhi....", she shut her eyes in disgust. Her hand moved over Samar's head. "Tere pappa... Vo maan to jaayenge na? Aur gussa to ni karenge na!? Samar.... Vo kyun ni samjhte hain main unse kitna pyaar karti? Main sahi se ni karti kya!? Unhe acchi ni lagti kya main? Koi kami hai kya mere ander...?? To mujhe bata de na... Main sudhaar loongi.....", she curled her lips wetting her cheeks and neck with tears. "Unke liye kuch bhi karoongi main bas mujhe bataaye to.... Maarte kyon hain....".

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'Tanisha... Beta itni raat ko call kiya sab theek to hai na?', Arunimaa got out of Anuj's room after putting him to sleep. It took her an hour to put him to bed but finally she lapped his head and pressed it till he slept.

'I am sorry aunty... Aapko disturb kiya!!'

'Koi baat ni beta bolo kya hua...??'

'Vo Anuj vo..... Maine use call kiya but uska phone switched off hai and ekdum se plan cancel kiya usne aur itna sad sound kar raha tha vo so... Mujhe bahut tension ho rahi thi... Vo theek to hai na...?'