smoke {c.h}

epiphany

fray's

"Oh." He shrugged, "Was he, uh-- a good kisser?"

I don't know why I'm looking for signs of jealousy in his features.

He hasn't any.

"He's fine. I think he recited one of Shakespeare's poem before kissing me." I huffed, "But it is still wrong because we just met but we're in New York for sake." I ordered another drink, aka milkshake.

"Anyways enough about kissing strangers- Cal? Are you okay?" He looks like he was thinking something like how the universe is created.

"Yeah." He snapped out of his thoughts, but his face is still making me concerned. "I was just thinking."

"About what?" I asked, suddenly being curious.

"Nothing." He threw a half hearted smile and called the waiter to follow up his lasagna.

calum's

"Nothing." I smile half-heartedly, I called the waiter because my order is already 15 minutes late.

The truth is, I think I know what's making me confused since the day I knew Fray. (yo it rhymes) Okay I ruined the mood. Anyways, as I've said. I think I knew it ever since but realization is always late. She looks so wonderful in that dress she is wearing tonight, so wonderful that I want to zip it off from her body in the most romantic way possible. The epiphany hit me when I sang my verse in our long lost song, Lost Boy.

I was finally able to ascertain why I like holding her hands and why I get the urge to kiss her and why I am willing to drive all the way to the bar at 2 am to get her drunk ass home even when she laid her lips to another man. Which is my bandmate, sadly. And depressingly.

It is weird how I came to my epiphany, but it is called epiphany for a reason. And also, even I am quite sure how I feel about the idea of her, I am still scared. Scared that I will ruin it, just like every time, screw up everything between us and lose her permanently. Scared that things will be at the worst point and we'll damage ourselves. And most importantly, scared that she doesn't have the same "confusion" I am having.

"Okay fine I am leaving." Fray stood up from her chair and grabbed her satchel.

"B-but why?" I frowned, feeling really confused. Did I do something wrong? Again?

"Calum you were off for solid 30 minutes! Your lasagna is already cold!" She shifted her weight to her another leg as she spoke, "I kept on trying to talk to you about your gig, your band and even your dog but I got no response. I asked you what's wrong but you wouldnt say a thing. How am I supposed to help you on what's bothering you if you won't respond? I came here to talk to Calum and bond with Calum but if this is what will I get, I should probably get going."

See what I am talking about when it comes to ruining things?

"No! I am sorry, I didn't realize that I dozed off. Please, please don't go home yet." I took the opportunity to grab her hands as her face softened.

"Come with me instead. My head kind of hurts." She sighed and gripped her bag.

"Too much milkshake intake?" She smiled sheepishly, which made me grin too.

"Fifty percent of that and fifty percent of dealing with Calum Hood." I laughed as she pushed the door open and intertwined her fingers with mine.

"I have a car, Fray." As I stopped her from calling a cab. She literally face palmed herself.

"Yeah, sorry cashmoney I forgot you own a 2013 convertible Volkswagen beetle." I rolled my eyes at her comment and led us to the back parking of the cafe slash bar.

"You actually researched my car." I opened the passenger door for her. Just a simple gesture I knew she would appreciate.

"What's wrong with that?" She asked as soon as I got inside. Now I got a good look on her outfit, and all I can say is very nice. Nice as in I want to make the fuck out with her right now.

"Nothing! I am curious why would you research my car." I answered as I buckled up and start the engine.

"But you say it like it's a creepy thing to do!" She protested, playing with the hem of her black dress.

"Okay okay. You were just curious. I get it."

"Yeah that's it. I am just curious." She nodded her head and pulled out her phone, probably to text Maddie.

Comfortable silence enveloped the surrounding. Actually not silence, with the radio blasting softly an indie pop song.

An hour later, we arrived at Fray's apartment with the owner of the apartment softly snoring, leaning on my window.

"Fray? We're home." I shook her gentle enough to wake her up.

"Hmm?" She is still half asleep and wont even stir.

"We are already at your apartment." I told the sleepy head on my passenger.

Nothing.

Maybe she's exhausted from work and life. So I carried her, again. Not that I am complaining cause she is heavy as cotton balls. I fished her keys in her bag and thankfully she labeled them.

I removed her shoes and jacket and tucked her in. She's so cute releasing tiny snores.

"Caluuum" She tugged at the hem of my shirt, as I am about to leave. "Can you stay the night?" She is half asleep and is incredible on being adorable.

"Ar- are you sure?" I tried to keep my face from smiling too much because it hurts my cheeks.

She just nodded, and pat the other side of her bed. I removed my shoes and pulled the duvet over me, maintaining a good space between me and her.

"Scoot closer, you loser." She mumbled sleepily. She is really something.

"Okay loser." I made a face before scooting on her side. I can't really explain what I am feeling right now, but I am sure that this is not confusion anymore.

I stared at her face until she is softly snoring again with her hands on my waist. She is the most precious, beautiful, pretty, and insert all adjectives here thing I've ever seen. And I am so stupid for only realizing it now.

I kissed her forehead and mumble a soft good night before drifting off to a nice slumber.

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