my rantbook, in english

26.0

Hiiii

Okay so uhm today I had L'ORAL DU BREVET HAHAH

It was uhm
Very not entertaining
Like I mean, I stayed at school in a random room with no friends DYING OF STRESS from 8an to 10am and then I did my presentation and... Idk, it was not "bad" but I really don't feel satisfied with myself

I think I would've done better if I had been in a good mood but I had no friends and the teachers I had as my judges were uhm
Yeah

So I was a lil unmotivated and I had to do one minute in english (I was so stressed abt this cuz speaking english in front of french ppl feels so freaking cringe to me omg 💀) and I had chosed sleep paralysis as my subject so at least if I wasn't being entertaining, subject was lol

I think I did well on the english part, I could've done better but I was expecting a lot worse lmfao
I had to make it short bc for some reason there was no english teacher in my jury so like... They were having trouble lol, I switched to french and I feel like my explanations were a bit... messy ? I don't know but like, I think if I had been these teachers I wouldn't have understood the stuff that I explained lol

Actually I was anxious bc I knew my presentation was longer than 5mins so I thought I should be fast :')
And I was feeling hot this morning while getting ready but school air you know, so I felt like a shit in the end which wasn't motivating either ;-;;

Anyways, so after I finished the explanations the teachers (they were 2 btw, my chemistry and latin teacher) started asking questions, and they didn't knew much about sleep paralysis so they asked a lot abt my personal experiences, though I still got busted by the latin teacher bc ofc my dumbass had written some greek on the presentation (bc history of sleep paralysis etc...) so she asked me abt some words and I wasn't able to translate them lol, but besides this I think I did well ?

I just could've done a lot better, I don't have this feeling of satisfaction you know ;-;;

Anyways, then me and my friends went to the canteen ykkk
The food wasn't good I don't even know why I ate it
And yeah, I slept on the bus ride

I just got back home and I feel like doing nothing this afternoon, though I'm feeling guilty cuz it's sunny outside lol

And I've had a few cutting urges but I'm resisting, I need to wait until my parents stop checking my arms and legs everyday ;-;;;;;
And yeah, that's it, I hope you're all doing good <33