Hold back the love

Total denial

"Boyfriend?me and Jimin...I'm not gay...!"
Jimin heard the words but couldn't stop the wrenching pain that tore through him.
Instead he turned from the other and said in a monotone voice ,
"You heard him Tae .....unlike you his dirty mind imagined all sorts just because you came out topless,he probably thinks I can't restrain myself,"
Jimin walked into his bedroom ignoring Jungkook
Tae frowned as the air got thick with Tension.
"That was a bit harsh Kook,you made it sound like Jimin had a bad disease! I was just trying on new shirts we went shopping!"
Jungkook felt ridiculous,he'd overreacted as usual and knew he'd have to correct his mistake.
Passing his friend he walked into the bedroom.Jimin lay back on his bed staring blankly at the ceiling.
"Jimin I...."
"Don't you dare...your a fucking coward,'I'm not gay', you did a good impression of of it last week."
"Look I thought I explained.we,well it was just,playing around..."
"Oh you explained,well let me explain to you,you have gay tendencies,you fucked a gay man so you sure as hell are not straight!"
"Don't shout Tae might hear,"
"Oh god forbid that eh? Let's keep you murky past quiet hate to sully your image!"
"Jimin..."
"If there's nothing else just go.Tae and I are going out"
"Out?where?"
"None of your damn business!"
"Look Jimin,let's not get riled up over nothing...."
"Nothing.....oh our time together was 'nothing'....right...sure let's forget it eh,so now fuck off I don't want to see your damn face."
Jungkook was shocked he knew he was wrong but he had never seen Jimin so angry...maybe he should let him calm down.
"Ok I'm going...."
"Good,"
Jimin stayed where he was and Jungkook walked out encountering an inquisitive Tae.
"You two ok?"
"Yer just a misunderstanding,it's fine,"
"Good Jimin was really happy earlier told me about the places you visited..."
"He did..?"
"Yer said he'd been worried about going in case you got bored around him but said you talked about things and he felt happy now."
"Yer we talked," and I fucked his brains out and found all his sweet spots,is what Jungkook wanted to say but he kept that to himself.
"Well good,I'm sure whatever this misunderstanding is can be talked over too?"
"Of course,er Jimin said you two are going out?"
"Oh shit yer,I gotta change we gonna have fun tonight!"
Tae hurried of and Jungkook watched him go wondering at his words.
He left getting in his car and gripping the wheel tightly,what the fuck was wrong with him,he'd been so jealous seeing a half naked Tae that he'd blurted out those words.But was he telling the truth? He felt confusion course through him,he liked Jimin...obviously and the sex? Fuck ....best he'd had but did it mean he was gay or just trying out something new,getting irritated with himself he called a friend.
"Wanna go to a bar?"
"Hey Kook yer..."
"Ok I'll drive to you.."
"Great...maybe we will get lucky with the ladies!"
"Yer......who knows,see you soon,"
Ending the call he drove to his friends and they walked to the local bars.
Jimin and Tae caught many gazes as they went out to eat.
The food was as expected from such a well known place although Jimin didn't eat much but drank the alcohol.
"You ok Jimin you don't normally drink like this."
"I'm fine Tae but honestly can we go somewhere....less stuffy I want to let lose a bit."
"Sure I know just the place,"
Tae ordered a taxi and the two were soon on their way to a bar Tae frequented with Jungkook and his friends little knowing what the night would bring.
Jungkook drunk his beer,one of many.
"Hey Kook slow down...the night is young,"
"Hmph!"
Jungkook pulled out his phone looking on social media. He frowned when he saw someone had taken a picture of Tae and Jimin in a well known restaurant.
Jimin looked...amazing ,he wore fitted pants and white dress shirt sleeves rolled part way and silver jewellery accompaniments ,his head was tipped back as he drank the lines of his body screaming out sexiness overload as he half leaned back in a sultry manner,Tae as usual a handsome sidekick,but it was the covert gazes of other diners towards Jimin that got the coils of jealousy going.
"Kook look those girls..."
Two woman dressed in next to nothing sidled over.Jungkooks friend gestured them to sit and the two women giggled and chatted to them.Jungkook couldn't have told you what either of them looked like just kept a fixed smile on his face as each girl attached themselves to one of them.
"You like me huh?" The girl next to Jungkook asked sidling closer,turning his head to answer her Jungkook was caught out by her eagerly pressing her lips on his.
"Oh hey Kook...was gonna ask if we could join you but see your busy,come on Jimin there's a table over there."
Jimin took in the scene before him ,nausea curling in his stomach as he saw Jungkooks mouth leave the girl and stare at him in...shock or annoyance?
Old hurt of being ignored by the other came crashing back but now shame encompassed him too.he'd been so sure Jungkook had feelings for him that was why he had got so angry at Jungkooks denial earlier...,yet he had been telling the truth he had been trying things out,he wasn't gay,he'll it looked like he couldn't wait to bed a girl so the shame was on him for falling for someone so unattainable...Jungkook had only spoke the truth whereas he had made up a fairy story where he would get his man.
A loud buzzing started in his head." Tae...get me out of here," he said gripping his friends arm.
Taking one look at his friend he hurried Jimin out alarmed at his pale sweating face.
"Jimin what is it?"
"I-I guess I drank too much," Jimin lied," send me home if you want to stay....."
"No I'll get you home..." Tae hailed a taxi as Jimin leaned against him,both getting in as Jungkook hurried out after seeing Tae almost dragging Jimin out. The taxi drove off and Jungkook sighed loudly.
"Hey you come back to me yes?"
Jungkook shook off the grabby hands of the woman who had sat next to him.
"Lady I don't like people throwing themselves on me or forcibly kissing go and get some other man to pay for your services."
The woman stormed off and Jungkook text his friend saying he was going home getting an 'ok I'll have to handle two' back.
Jungkook walked to his car sitting inside,should he go to Jimins?
He text Tae.
"Why did you leave ?"
"Jimin drank too much"
"Is he ok?"
"Hope so,I'll get him home,he's gone quiet will probably sleep it off."
"Ok,I'm going home to not feeling it tonight."
"Alone(snigger)"
"Definitely,that bitch threw herself on me not my type at all left her there."
"Better luck next time."
Jungkook turned his phone off..,next time,he'll his skin had crawled when she had pounced and if he hadn't been so shocked he would have thrown her off.
All he had thought was,her lips weren't soft like Jimin's,her perfume was to overpowering,Jimin's scent was nice and natural.....
He he it home showering to remove any traces of the woman while thinking how he could make up with Jimin tomorrow,unaware of the angst the other felt of what he now knew was total denial of just what they had.
"It's ok Jimin I'll make this right," he murmured before falling wearily asleep.