FEEL THE MUSIC {BABY LASAGNA}

VI.Raiven taught us how to pose

I didn't answer his question but he didn't seem to be waiting for one.
He opened the door and sat on the floor next to me, in complete silence. I continued crying, hiding my face with both of my hands. I felt his arm around my back first giving me soft pats on my back and then giving me the most shy hug I've had ever received. It was very notorious that he wasn't used to physical contact, but the feeling of having him near gave me comfort. Thanks to him Harrison had gone out.

-Are you okay?-He said in a low and relaxed way after a while, only when I calmed myself a bit.

I looked at him and my eyes met his and a feeling of security filled my body.

-I'm sorry you had to see the scene we caused…

-But are you okay?

-Would you believe me if I told you that I'm okay?

-Would you believe me if I told you I'm not shy around people I don't know?-The ability to make me laugh when I was at my worst was absolutely amazing.

-Well maybe I'm not okay. I've just seen a person from my past but that's a long story.

-Trust me, I'm a good listener. 

-Don't take it personal, but I barely know you…

-Okay then. I'm Marko Purišić. I'm 23 years old. I was born in a coastal town called Umag. I come from a family in which the majority of the members are teachers, so when I was younger I thought I would become one. I have a younger brother called Martin who is also a musician. I was once the guitarist in a band called Mantra but I quit to start a musical career encouraged by my ex-girlfriend. I adore cats. I have three at my house and I miss them a lot. I'm not good at talking to people because I tend to think that I'm boring them or that they don't like me but they hide it. That makes me feel very anxious and that is maybe the reason why I feel very comfortable with people who are honest and say what they're thinking. I also tend to overshare with the people who I'm comfortable with because I'm usually quiet around most people. And I ALWAYS put others first. Also, I'm a people pleaser and I don't know how to say no. Now you can't say you barely know me. -He said proud of himself.

That little speech made me smile. He was really trying to make me feel better without even knowing me and I believed he overshared with me so, didn't that mean that he felt comfortable around me?

-My father, Harrison, is from London. He was a troubled kid and started taking drugs from an early age. By the time he turned 21, his addiction was terrible. He was completely broke and his parents (my grandparents) didn't want him around, so he moved to Spain where he met my mum.

My mum was 20 at that moment. They got along at first and started dating. But my father was lying. He told her he was doing an Erasmus (a college exchange program). My mother fell in love with the character my father was playing to be, while Harrison loved my mother's money so they soon got married. My mom was already pregnant with me when she found out the truth. That's when the fights began. She managed to make him go when I was only 5 years old. The reason why he had gone back to London was because she had threatened him to report his actions to the police. I don't remember him at all, but I have a clear image of the scars my mum has all over her back and arms. The only time I've seen Harrison since he left was eight years ago when he came to Spain only to ask my mom for money. As she denied, he threatened her to fight for my custody, but it didn't matter because he was a drug addict and he could end up in prison if the things he did to my mom were revealed. Even knowing that, my eleven year old-self had numerous nightmares of him taking me away from my mum, the woman who had raised me alone all those years. -My voice broke numerous times while telling my story. I didn't know why I had just told a person I had known for only a week one of my most personal memories. But I was sure of one thing, I felt way better after saying it all aloud.
Apart from Paula, he was the only one to whom I spoke about the real story of my father.