IN THE EYES OF LOVE: Book 1 (Choi Seungcheol)

20 |It's Complicated

It's been two days since I had quit my position at the hospital, two days since Seungcheol had given me a ride home. Two days since he had given me comforting words that just made my head spin in a daze. 

The hissing of the kettle broke my thoughts away, a sigh escaped my lips as I prepared the tea. Minghao and Jihoon decided to come by after giving me time to register my emotions, I didn't mind them worrying but I did mind that they lingered around after informing them that I was okay. "Are you doing okay?" Jihoon's voice stops me from slipping deeper into my thoughts, I look at him. "Yeah, sorry the tea is almost done," I said with a small smile as I got the tea tray ready.

I place the tray on the table, "Mitxy...we need to know if you are okay?" Minghao says with worrisome. I let a tired sigh leave my lips as I faced them both, "I'm okay, I'm perfectly okay. Trust me, you don't have to worry so much." I said taking a seat. Jihoon crosses his arms and leans back into the chair, "That's hard to believe Mitxy, we've known each other for almost a year." Jihoon says. I look at him with furrowed brows, "Then shouldn't you trust me?" I asked. Minghao exchanges a look with Jihoon, "Look, yes I had an outburst during the whole chaos at the hospital but I'm okay. Why is that so hard to understand." I ask feeling annoyed.

Minghao stirs his tea with furrowed brows lost in his thoughts, Jihoon shakes his head. "We're just worried about you, we want to make sure you're in the right mindset." He says, Minghao nudges Jihoon's arm. "Right mindset? What do you mean??" I asked sitting straight and folding my arms on the table. Minghao sighs and looks at me, "Joshua told us about Rosie..." He says. I bite my bottom lip and exhale softly, a soft chuckle leaves my lips. I look at the tea going cold in my cup, "He told you..." I say bitterly.

Jihoon and Minghao look at each other, "Then you know that I'm the reason why Rosie died...I'm the one who got her killed." I said. Jihoon turns to look at me wide-eyed, "That's not true Mitxy and you know it." He protests. Minghao gets up, "It was never your fault. I don't see why you keep blaming yourself when there's clear evidence of who's at fault." His voice was stern yet soft. I closed my eyes and let out a shaky breath, "But I was also under the influence of alcohol..." I said getting up from the chair.

Minghao and Jihoon were perplexed, "I was also under the influence, I'm also at fault just as much as the other driver." I cried. Jihoon shakes his head, "Ani! You weren't the one who hit the other driver, he hit you! Mitxy it was not your fault!" Jihoon argues. I pushed the chair out of the way and tried to control my emotions, I turned my back on them. "It was not your fault," Minghao says, I look up at the ceiling as tears pool in my eyes. "Stop..." I said, I could hear their footsteps approaching me. "It wasn't your fault Mitx," Jihoon says, I sob uncontrollably.

Jihoon pulls me into his arms, "You were at a red light, he was the one who swerved into you..." Minghao whispers as he rests his head against my shoulder and his arms wrapped around my torso. "Joshua told us everything...why didn't you mention it before?" Jihoon asks, I hiccup. "I wasn't sure how to," I whisper I didn't know how. I wasn't sure how I could open up to them about the death of my sister.

I let out a shaky breath, "You were carrying a burden all by yourself...you shouldn't have gone through it by yourself." Minghao says. I let out a small sigh, "That explains the constant drinking." Jihoon jokes lightly. I smile and laugh lightly, "I stopped drinking after the whole situation with Seungcheol and his aunt." I said. Minghao and Jihoon let go of me, "Speaking of him, Wonwoo told me what you've done in the office." Jihoon says. I look at them and let a tired sigh leave my lips.

"It's complicated...I didn't expect that to happen." I said, Jihoon wiped away my tears. "Now the real question is, do you have feelings for Seungcheol? Or was your crush on Wonwoo a small phase?" He asked, I look at him. Wonwoo...gosh I've been so busy with Seungcheol and his family gatherings that I haven't been able to talk to Wonwoo. I indeed have feelings for him but I'm not sure if they reciprocate the way they do for Seungcheol.