[30] Bedtime Delusions 🅴

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There's no such thing as bad thoughtsOnly our actions talkBut I still feel guilty thinking about those thoughtsImagining things I could never put to talk

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There's no such thing as bad thoughts
Only our actions talk
But I still feel guilty thinking about those thoughts
Imagining things I could never put to talk

Messing and fucking up
That's what I'm scared of
Why do I have to think about you this way then?
Is it because of this bed? Or is it because you're ten?

I'm not innocent
I think of thoughts people shouldn't think
I feel so bad that I might just punch myself
Because these kind of thoughts isn't to think

This even makes me question if I'm genuine
Because if I am, is it normal to be lustful?
It's not I think of it twenty-four-seven
But I still don't think it's a good thing and it's dull

My mind is so full
The stress, the love, and the lust
I might just tuck myself in my bed
I don't to go out and act so brushed

If I told people about this
They might think I'm gross, or worse, pervert
If people get to know about this
They might think I'm creepy, or worse, sex addict

I will take pills if it can remove this sins
I will drink drinks if it can distract me away from this
I will take everything to now think of him like this
Either way, I still think of removing that shirt of his

I know I didn't let my love towards you be shown
But I don't need to if only you know about the frown
These fucking thoughts is fucked up if shown
It's kind of worrying me, these bedtime delusions

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