Physical love

26.

It was silent for a while.

My question probably hit him like a ton of bricks. He didn't expect it at all and neither did I.

"I uh-" he stuttered and then it was quiet again.

He blocked me off again and this time, I wasn't gonna push him anymore. I was done trying to break down his damn walls.

I took my hands off his body and just as I was about to get off him, he turned around, on his back.

"You want me to kiss you?" He asked, his hands on my hips, to make sure I couldn't get off him.

My heart was pounding, it even jumped up in my throat.

"I-well.." now I was the one who was stuttering.

He sat up, and I was still sitting on his lap. Our faces were only inches away from each other. His beautiful eyes were staring right in mine.

"Gianna, do you want me to kiss you?" He asked again. "Because if I kiss you, I don't think I'll be able to stop or share you"

I leaned a little closer, letting my lips almost brush against his. "Then don't stop or share"

He chuckled a little at that. Put his hand on my cheek and pressed his lips against mine.

It was such a soft kiss at first, just a little peck.

We backed off a little after that, looked in each other's eyes and crashed into each other again.

This time the kiss was more passionate.

He fell down on his back, pulled me down with him and we didn't stop kissing, just as he said.

Our tongues brushed against each other, his taste lingered on my lips.

He was a damn good kisser, made my heart beat so fast.

"You're absolutely beautiful" he mumbled on my lips. "I wish I told you way sooner"

Didn't matter that he took his time with it. I was happy he finally put his walls down for me.

We cuddled up against each other. My head was on his chest and I could hear his heart beat just as fast.

Maybe even faster.

His hand brushed against my back. "I am actually kind of glad that I crashed against the wall today"

"Why's that?" I asked. Made circles with my finger on his chest.

He was so handsome.

I was counting the birth marks on his chest. He had a lot of them.

"I won a lot more than just your number tonight" he answered softly.

"You still didn't win my number though" I chuckled. Wanted to give it to him either way. He didn't need to win it anymore.

"Oh but I will" he moved his hand up to the back of my neck. Brushed his fingers through my hair. "Pretty soon"

He was so stubborn, why wouldn't he just take my number?

Didn't ask him though, I just enjoyed his fingers through my hair.

We forgot about everything, this evening was only for him and I.

But we both knew.

We knew that there were many things left unsaid.

What about the girl he kissed? Who was she and why was he so desperate about keeping her out of the press?

I still didn't have an answer to that.

What about Max? He really cared about me, brought me soup when I was sick, cuddled me all night.

He wanted to be more than friends with benefits.

But in this moment, we didn't care about what other people wanted, we only cared about our feelings.

My heart was beating for him and his heart was clearly beating for me too.

That was enough for now.

I would deal with the rest tomorrow.