Love Redefined

Chapter 31

"Is this what you want?" Tee just ignore the words the person who he never thought would appear here, in the wardroom, where unconscious Godt was lying down. Even though he didn't even turning his head looking at the guy from behind him, he knew very well the owner of that voice.

"Is this the kind of love you want from him?" The guy asked again sounded closer than before, and Tee still didn't move from where he was seating, nor he look away from the pale face of his husband.

"I told you enough that you need treatment more than you needed him. Look at what you both had become." Tee still ignore the voice of the guy who was taking the seat at the other side of the bed.

"Things you did to Copter, is it worth it? Don't deny it anymore Tee. I know you know that the very reason Godt tried to kill himself was all because of you. You have to face it. You have to learn how to face the reality Tee, instead of taking whatever you want without care about anybody else. Including Godt you claimed to fall in love on first sight." Tae's voice and tone was normal despite the anger he had when he thought about unconscious Copter back at the hospital in Chiang Mai.

He came here once he saw the news of Godt trying to take his life on his wedding day, right after they pronounce husband and husband. Tae never thought Godt had taken things this extreme. Watching how he was on this hospital bed, he could see how determine Godt was. But they both were still his friends. That's why he was here.

"I believe he will wakes up one day, Tee. You know how strong he is. Don't you want to see him again with the new you? Don't you want to cherish him better when he was waking up once again? Will you let go this second chance you had with him?"

Tee didn't reply, but this time Tae could saw tears flowing down from Tee's eyes, giving some sort of reaction over Tae's words. That proves he was listening, even though it looked like he wasn't. Still, Tee didn't fry away his eyes from Godt's face.

"Doctor said he lost so much blood that the oxygen couldn't be sent enough to his brain. Luckily, his brain still had some activity and was not brain dead. Still, it was weak, therefore he falls into coma. They couldn't tell if he will wakes up, Tae." Tee said then turned to Tae.

Tee couldn't suppressed his tears anymore and was crying in front of Tae. The sight that Tae could see for the first time. All this time he put the strong front and always act like he was always right in front of Tae, and now for the first time ever, he knew he lose it.

The moment he saw how Godt had determine to slash his own wrist, it struck him hard. It was like he just waking up from a long dream, a bad one, and he was a second too late. Godt already lying weak in his arms, with blood all over the handmade wedding suit specially ordered for Godt, with a pool of blood on the altar floor where they were just getting married.

"And Copter was gone too. I don't know why I did that. I just couldn't stop myself no matter what I did. In the deep of my heart, I know very well that Copter was innocent. But I was jealous, and I hate myself for that. Being jealous to a person from a lowly status, that makes me angry. Being angry for so long, and Godt still mentioning his name from time to time, it never dissuade my anger even a bit. So I did, what I did. And now it was too late for an apology, right?"

Tae couldn't said anything to that. He felt the anger too, and he was afraid he would lashed out on the guy if he were to say anything. Seeing how Tae was keep his quiet for a while, Tee knew Tae was angry, and he was the one to blame. He knew it now. He could understand what Godt was trying to say now, but then it was too late. He regret a lot of things, but it didn't change a thing, only giving him this despair and despicable feelings that sometime making him throwing up, disgusting with himself and everything he had done.