Trying to stimulate a mind that is slowly starting to decay
TW: angst : (
The next day, Sunday the 9th 7:01am, Location: Mrs. Jeons office
"I didn't think I'd see you here again so soon Mr. Lee and for a bad reason at that." The old woman taps her long red nails on her dark desk, her beedy eyes watching me through her thin glasses. I could feel my body still shaking, my mind remembered the sirens and the look of my friend unconscious in my arms before being taken away. I didn't sleep, and I wanted to cry. The woman continued, "You do know I will have to suspend you for assaulting Mr. Oh right? He also had to attend the nearby hospital to check for any internal bleeding you may have caused," she says with a serious tone, I didn't feel anything. "Mr. Kwak will return to campus soon when he is okay to leave the hospital but for now I hope you will accept a 2 week suspension, you will receive lessons and work online and you are not allowed to leave Atrovirens building during that time, understand?" I could only nod my head, getting up from my seat and walk out of the office with a weight on my chest.
I knew before I was on lockdown I had to leave Jiseok a message and see someone. I pull out my phone as I stood in the middle of the four corners courtyard and place the device against my ear, waiting for the ringing to stop to leave a voicemail,
"Jiseok, I wanted to say I'm sorry, I'm sorry I let you get taken from my side, I'm sorry they did those things to you, what the devil and his army did, I know you were afraid, it's all my fault Seok, I hope you can forgive me,"
I finished, hot tears welling up in my eyes and my breathing becoming erratic. My body felt tired and the adrenaline seemed to have finally worn off as my legs gave out and I was now kneeling on the hard concrete, trying my best to confine the sobs that erupted from me. "Joo!? Come here," Hyungjun? I opened my eyes and saw that it was indeed Han Hyungjun, and I probably looked like death. I feel his long arms pull me into a tight hug, his hands running up and down my back, I dug my face into his shoulder and sobbed finally.
The same day, 9:24pm, Location: Jooyeons lonely dorm room
I sat in front of the small desk that was provided to me, a computer with a mouse and keyboard placed on top of it, in front of me that was set up and provided as well. The black screen stared back at me, the void haunting me but I didn't look away. The rest of my day was spent in my room, I didn't have any energy or will to go get dinner, take a shower, or even change out of my clothes from the night before.
I checked my phone a few times and received multiple messages from a large number of students, mostly strangers but a few from people I recognized. One thing was that my voicemail still hadn't been checked, indicating Seoks phone was off or he couldn't answer me or worse, didn't want to. I knew I was going to go insane, not being able to go outside for 14 days, it was unfair and I was devastated. My eyes were extremely dry from the waterworks earlier, I only felt slightly better but not enough. I rub my temples with my fingers in hopes to tone down my headache.
Any bit of peace I had at the moment was interrupted by a strange shuffling sound that came from underneath my door. Shocked and frozen in fear, I turned my head slowly and saw a white rectangle on my carpet, it looked like a piece of paper. It was most likely a letter but from who? Shakily, I pushed the wooden chair back and pushed myself up from it and slowly walked to pick it up. There was no name from the sender but it was for me of course, I peel open the blank paper and read,
'Dear Lamb,
I hope you had a good time at the party, I definitely did. I must say, you have such lovely strength. I'd like to show you mine sometime, but my little mouse this is only the beginning of what I have stored for you, let's work hard and get through the year together : )
Love, Oh Seungmin'
I fought the urge to tear the letter into bits and pieces and shove them into my mouth but I decided against it. Instead I let it slowly fall to the ground and slid into my twin bed, pulling my blanket to cover up to my nose and closed my eyes with the intention of falling asleep but it never came.
