I could do about anything
I could even learn how to love
Saturday, December 7th 3:44pm
"I hate to say this but you're probably the most unfortunate person I've ever known Jooyeon," Jungsu says as he picks off the old black nail polish off his nails. We sat outside of the lodge under some random picnic table pavilion, there were about 3 other students outside with the rest of them inside. It was afternoon now but the sky was gray, not a single ray of sunlight could be seen but it didn't snow again. "I just need to ignore any other form of interaction with him and go to sleep early or late or well-ugh just ignore him? I don't know what to do Su." I zip up my jacket and throw my hood over my head, a wave of dread washed through me. Initially I had a different vision of how this trip would go, so far the class hadn't done anything that was considered fun, we haven't seen any of the teachers since we arrived. Everyone was just kind of living and hanging around but I knew deep down something would happen.
We sat in silence for a few minutes but it wasn't awkward, we just didn't have anything to say and I appreciated the quietness. One of the many things I have gotten to experience from Jungsu was how alike he and I were. We both enjoyed the silence, had similar humor, and even though he was more outgoing than me he helped me do things out of my comfort zone. "So Kwak, have you talked to your special roommate yet?" I hear someone snicker from a certain distance away from me. As if almost on queue both Jungsu and I turn our heads in that direction, to my dismay it was Kwak Jiseok, about 3 randoms kids but I saw another recognizable face there, "Absolutely not, I want nothing to do with someone like him, I can't believe you'd ask me that Juho-hyung," He says and the older laughs loudly at his words.
People like me? I thought, what in the hell did that mean? The others around him laugh at his words too, bugging me. I could feel my eyes twitch at my roommate talking about me to a group of people he would never speak to. "Too bad I didn't even get to start my fun with him, he won't let me," Baek Juho says, "You don't want to hyung, he's nothing but bad luck, all he does is pass himself around to every hot guy and leaves them when he gets bored." I heard the smaller male say, the blood in me was now boiling at his words. "Okay Joo please don't get yourself into trouble, ignore his short ass and enjoy this break okay?" The raven haired male says to me in an attempt to calm me down but it wasn't helping because I felt so much pent up emotions in me. It's like my body moved on its own as I stood up and started making my way towards the small group, all of them stopping their conversation about me to look at me. "Jooyeon? C-Can we help you?" My old friend says to me, no one else speaks but I could just tell what they were thinking of me.
"I think you want something from me Jiseok, I couldn't help but hear my name in your mouth.So what do YOU want from me?" I say with a tone of aggressiveness, crossing my arms and walking closer to him. "Careful Jiseok, if you get too close you'll catch his slutiness." A random girl behind him says, causing him and the entire group to laugh again. "Shes right Joo, get along with it before I catch what you have," he says with a tone of disgust. I could almost cry at those words, I don't understand what I did to him to deserve what was happening right now. By now I noticed Jungsu appearing behind me and probably heard what they were saying to me. It felt like I was back in the past, because I lifted my hand up without thinking and slapped it hard against the smallers face. Collective gasps from everyone around were heard, my hand was red and stinging and so was the left side of Jiseoks face. He holds his hand there for a few seconds, eyes and mouth wide before lifting his hand and mirroring my actions by slapping me.
At this point I thought if I was going to fight him I had to do the most damage out of both of us, so I raise my fist and land it right in the middle of his face which knocks him to the ground. I don't give him time to collect himself and straddle his body on the ground, hitting him and receiving some hits from him as well. I was surprised no one was trying to separate us, while in thought, the male under me had shoved me off him and switched positions so my back was now on the ground with him on top of me. I see Jungsu from the corner of my eye and shouting something, being held back by Juho and I see Jiseok reach to the side and grab something, blood dripping down his face from the wounds he had on his face filled with hate. The last thing I see before I feel something hard hit me on the side of my head, the crowd that formed was screaming in shock and fear but I'm only given a few seconds before passing out.
A few hours later, Sunday, December 8th 12:05am
This ringing feeling spread throughout my head and body, as well as an indescribable pain as I opened my eyes, my body was laying in a semi-comfortable bed. I look to the side and see gauzes, rubbing alcohol and other medical equipment on a small night stand. There was a clock next to it that read 12 am, I almost failed to notice a dry pain in my throat, more pain was now being spread through me. I was alone, I got up slowly from the bed and placed my feet into my black slides and got off slowly. I had to get out of this room I was in, I wanted to see if there was by chance anyone awake at this time.
There must be at least a few people right? I think to myself and walk out into a long corridor, multiple doors on each side of the room with no labels, it was dark with only candles illuminating the large space, a red velvet carpet under my feet as I held onto the wall on my right and walked for what seemed like forever. I stopped in front of the lodge's double doors, there were windows beside them and the sight of two people sitting at the picnic table caught my eye. It was a man and a woman. I couldn't tell who they were but I saw their silhouette. The man reached up to the girl's face to push back a piece of her hair behind her ear, they were whispering in each other's ear, smiling and laughing.
For some reason It put a smile on my face, this moment of what seemed like peace was nice. I felt happy for them. Then they both stood up, the guy dragging her towards the lodge doors by her hand, their faces now showing in the light, my smile fading. I open the doors, both of them stopping and staring at me, a look of shock on both of their faces. "Joo? You're awake now, um, how are you?" The two-toned hair male says, avoiding eye contact and scratching the back of his neck. The girl only avoided eye contact with me as well, I didn't recognize her as anyone I've seen before but she was pretty, she had long black hair, big brown eyes, and she was around 5'6. "Jimin, you can go up to your room, I can meet you there." The oldest says, releasing her hand and she nods and walks past me.
"So, you do this to everyone you take interest in? You didn't even worry if I was doing okay?" I say, awkward silence fills the air, he only stares at me with a look in his eyes I can't encrypt. "Well Jooyeon, I need to satisfy my urges and needs in some way, do you expect me to wait for you whenever you want-" "Whenever I want to do what??? Sleep with you Oh Seungmin? Is that all you see in me, a body?" I cut him off, raising my voice, a strange pang of a sad and frustrated emotion in my heart was now going to the back of my throat. The said male just sighs in annoyance? He was annoyed?
"I thought you knew that about me, that's all everyone says when they talk about me because it's true, you were just blinded by my meaningless affection, love, that's all I can tell you but get well soon okay?" He says before walking past me too, leaving me standing alone, a hot tear streaming down my cheek and wiping it away quickly. I thought to myself, I couldnt spend the next few days here and pull my phone out and call a phone number Jungsu had given to me sometime back and speak into it. The call lasted only a few seconds before we hung up and all I had to do was wait to be taken back to my dorm. When I arrived I could think about what to do next.
A/N: Yall I hate hurting our Joo but ITS FOR THE PLOT 😔
