But I have grown too strong to ever fall back in your arms
Flashback to 2 years ago, September 12th
Kwak Jiseok. Since his start at JYP Academy he had been contributing to the academics department, effortlessly raising his ranks in his test scores, joining the science club, all in his first year especially as a member of House of Glaucous. Besides being smart he also had a good personality, the young man was kind, fragile, and timid. Never in his life had he ever been in trouble, all throughout his growing up years he lived a good life, his parents loved and cared for him deeply as well as his siblings. He was the definition of a perfect person. Until the devil took a hold of him.
The short boy had many friends, different House members, his professors and even the principal! But he had never been invited to a party until one day a certain bossy hyung decided to invite him to a special party with a certain individual. Jiseok didn't think anything of it when one of the most well known students in the Academy invited him and his goody two shoes friends to an inappropriate party but he didn't mind.
And so here he was, seated on the steps of a nearby frat house, the air inside was almost toxic from all the smoking and alcoholic drinks. In his red solo cup was a clear liquid of water and he was grateful for the cool air that flowed through his black locks. He was also sure the music could be heard all around the neighborhood. In the hour he had been outside no one came out to check on him nor did his friends message him, the small boy sat with his head resting on his knees.
"Isn't it a bit too chilly to be out here?" A voice snapped the young male from his thoughts, Jiseok looked up to see a handsome, silver haired, slender eyed stranger. The stranger smelled of a warm, woodys like scent, his outfit consisted of black slacks with a white button up with the sleeves rolled out. Kwak Jiseok felt an immediate attraction to this beautiful stranger, as well as his cheeks and ears warming up. "Well, do you mind if I sit with you?" And of course the younger of the two couldn't resist and it would be his worst mistake, "I'm Oh Seungmin, and you are?"
That was how it began, everyday since then the two began their own special relationship, one would imagine it was filled with passion, joy, and warmth and on the outside it might have looked that way but in reality it wasn't.
"Gaon sweetheart come here,"
The younger boy flinched, a voice filled with venom spat at him and he was afraid of what he would say.
"I hope you know no one will like you the way I do."
'Was it true? What would I do without him?'
"Gaon I thought I told you I didn't like it when you spoke to other men, but I guess if it's what you want,"
His heart sank, in his mind Oh Seungmin was the only man who would accept him and care for him for who he is, what would he do without him?
"Min I-I'm sorry, I won't talk to anyone I promise,"
"Yeah, you better not, I know everything my little sheep."
"Gaon why are you crying, they're just messing with you," The older laughs, his friends surrounding them joining in on picking on the young boy, insults and jokes ranging from his appearance, his personality, to the simple and cute clothes he wore, his glasses, his hair, anything they could think of. He felt uncomfortable and disgusted but tried to make the most of it.
"Y-Yeah, you're right Min, I'm just overreacting," he nods his head and let the insults continue, much to his dismay but he wanted nothing more than to make the handsome male happy.
"Jiseok I have to be honest," he sat down in front of me. I was finishing my science homework in my dorm, it was already after 9pm and I wasn't in the mood to argue with Seungmin but the latter had other plans. In the year me and the older had been 'together' it was nothing how I imagined in the beginning, I was vulnerable, I let myself fall into the bed of the devil. "Say it please, I need to finish this," I snapped at him, he was surprised at my tone as so was I, but I was irritated, there was something in me that didn't feel warmth towards this person.
"I think I'm bored of you, yeah. Whatever this was Jiseok it was interesting from time to time but nothing has ever changed, I always felt nothing."
No other words were exchanged, no looks or touches, just silence and the sound of a door being slammed closed and the feeling of relief were heard.
"I wasn't happy for long Joo, it was always pretend, that man does nothing but drain the life out of you and I don't want it to happen to you so please, stay away from him and be happy," The blue and pink haired male couldn't help but stuff his face into his hands, a small muffled sob could be heard from him and I reached over and held him tightly.
'I wish it was that easy'
