Heart beating fast
My cheeks are wet and my breath is ragged
I couldn't quite put my finger on what I did wrong
What I could have possibly done to make you raise your voice at me for the third time this week
I try to count to ten to calm myself down
Try to tell myself that this is just a misunderstanding
Everything will be just fine in an hour
He will realize he loves me and put an end to this nonsense
I lost count how many times I told myself this lie
How many times I forced myself to believe the words that fill my brain
Trying to forget all the harsh things he said to me out of anger
Wondering why I always find myself in this position
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Another one from the vault, I look back at these and want to give my younger self a hug. The things I allowed because I didn't love myself enough Xx
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The Aftermath
PoetryEverybody talks about the pain of going through a toxic relationship, the heartbreak of it all, even, once it all ends. However, nobody really talks about the aftermath. The toxic tendencies that you unwillingly adapt, the constant overthinking and...
