Why do I feel like I'm right back at the start
Constantly questioning what i mean to the person I love the most
Always in my head wondering if I made this out to be something greater than it ever was
Fighting for someone who wouldn't do the same if given the same chance
The thing is I know I love this guy
But what if my heart has been too damaged
What if some pieces were shattered too small to put them all back together again
I don't want to believe this was all for nothing
And maybe it isn't
Maybe some unhealed wounds from my past are making me feel this way
Maybe his words aren't as cold and distant as my mind is making them seem
I don't want to give up on such a kind soul
A soul that has brought me so much comfort
Brought me peace when his arms wrap around me
I just want to love with everything I have
Be loved in return in the same regards
Make it known that I'm truly the one they want without a shadow of a doubt
But at this point I'm not too sure how I could trust my damaged heart
Or the signals that could be sabotaging such a beautiful thing I found in my angel boy
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The Aftermath
PoetryEverybody talks about the pain of going through a toxic relationship, the heartbreak of it all, even, once it all ends. However, nobody really talks about the aftermath. The toxic tendencies that you unwillingly adapt, the constant overthinking and...
