Full Bloom / Alicent Hightower x OC Male

18. Wide Awake

"From the moment I saw you... I have loved you desperately. I cannot breathe when you are not near. I love you, Alicent. My heart calls your name. I wanted to tell you. I wanted you to know." Miguel declared

"This... madness of our secret and our romance...  This darkness we hide in so we may be together..." miguel whispered bringing his face close to her.  "You bring the light".

"I wish i could share you with the world but if we let them in is no longer ours."

"Ours." He agreed. "I'm okay with hiding this i just want You to know that... i wish i could kiss you in public and hold your hand and-" he shrugged. "I get it i do but alicent, i love you and i will always love you."

"You lack focus today." Rhaenyra told alicent. She turned her cheek confused. "Whats wrong?" Alicent poked at her food. "Have you eaten?" Alicent shrugged. She loved miguel and he was right their love wouldnt last. It was unfortunate it was worse than unfortunate it was heartbreaking and heart wrenching.

"You gotta eat, alicent. You get hungry, and you're gonna feel worse."

"Nothing can make me feel worse," alicent said, her voice rough. The realization that this would end was mortally wounded. A sandwich wasn't going to save her. Rhaenyra didn't answer. She just procured a lemon tart from somewhere and handed it to alicent.

Alicent took it slowly and just stared at it in her hand.

"This hurts so much," alicent said softly. "I can't breathe without him."

"Him? Him who?" Rhaenyra demanded. "You have a crush? A suitor? Since when?"

"I just want it to stop." Alicent whispered. "Stop hiding and lyong and just,,, but i cants." Rhaenyra peered out into the yard confused.

"Maybe it's not meant to stop. Maybe this is supposed to make you strong."   Rhaenyra offered.

"It's not making me strong. It's killing me." Alicent demanded. "I need him forever and the blunty reality is that we cant be forever!" She shouted marching off.

"Alicent? Who is he? When did we stop talking?"

"When you became obsessed with yourself!" Alicent called back.

"My heart whats-"

"I love you and i hate that we cant be forever. Lets run away." Alicent declared.

"Okay." Miguel agreed putting down his basket of herbs.  "Lets go now."

"Lets go now. Lets go now."

"Alicent its time to go? Are you up? Im leaving soon so if-"

Alicents eyes peeled open and she realized she had dreamt it. How much of it had she dreamt?

"Leave without me!" Alicent called out. She left after her father so as to not rise suspicion and found miguel tended to his garden the herbs in his basket.

"Ours." She declared. Miguel smiled back at her. That was real.

"Ours." He agreed. "Might I offer you some tea my lady? I have a new blend of herbs and spices for my celeyon tea." Miguel told her.

"I would love that.,, miguel?"

"Yes my heart?"

"If we ran away. Would you want to run away with me?" He smiled kissing her.

"When shall we leave?" She pinched herself. Yep she was wide awake.