the wheels of life

chapter 18

Last time

Ruby:ok, let's begin.

Now

*Ruby and Blake looked around nervously, ruby took a sip of her tea, and licked her lips nervously*

Ruby:you...you obviously want to know, why I called you here...

Blake:I mean...c..can't it just be a nice visit? I would be more than happy if we just drank tea together

*Blake said with a nervous smile, taking a sip of her Oolong Tea. But ruby shook her head,*

Ruby:no. If we ignore the issue, nothing will get fixed, and I do want to fix this....do you?

Blake:o..of course I do! Y .yes. yes. I...I really want to fix this. To fix us, I...I want you back in my life

*Blake said, the desperation in her tone was evident. Ruby nodded, and took a bite of her peanut butter cookie*

Ruby: I'm....I'm not gonna say that I don't feel the same way, but it's hard for me. Surely you have to understand that

Blake:I do. I can't even imagine how hard it must be to be civil with me. If I were in your position, I would never want to see either

*Blake said with a small frown, feeling disgusted with herself. For the things she's done when she was younger, still something she struggled with at the age of 25. But ruby being the optimistic dog person, that she is, just gave her a small smile, to cheer Blake up a little*

Ruby: well, that's why you're a cat and I'm a dog. It's not that I don't want to see you. But you can't just pop into my shop, whenever you want.

*Ruby said, her smile disappeared, as she tried her best, to give a stern expression on her face*

Ruby:There...there needs to be... There IS gonna be some boundaries, if we are gonna continue to see, if we can fix this

Blake:ok. I...I can live with that. What do you have in mind

*Blake asked, still feeling nervous, but less so, now that she knows why ruby asked her to come by*

Ruby:well, my therapist recommended that we only see each other once a week. Friday, works best for me

Blake:once a week? I.. isn't that too little?

*Blake asked, there was a bit of fear behind her voice, she was selfish she knew that, but she wanted more than just 1 day*

Ruby:maybe. But.... And I'm not saying this to be mean

Blake:ruby, I know you would never say anything to be mean, your much too nice for that

*Blake said with a small smile, she wanted to place her hand on top of Ruby's for support, but she hesitated and didn't*

Ruby:ok, it's just that whenever you come around uninvited, it drains me emotionally. It takes me a few days, to get out of bed. Since all my brain can think about is...that night.

Blake:oh... I.... I understand that, but.... But I'm a cat as you said, I can be selfish. I...I know I have no room to ask about this but, can't I get more than just one day?

*Blake asked, she knew she was pushing her luck, but she had to try, she would regret it if she didn't. She started to regret it, when ruby started to look uncomfortable, as she thought about it*

Ruby:well...I... No. No you can't.

*Ruby Said, she almost buckled and let Blake push her into something she was not comfortable doing.  But she remained firm*