TO THE STUBBORN MATE

The past 0.2

Jeongguk pov
I'm feeling shit of myself for acting like that, I shouldn't have done that. I should apologize to him, I don't know if he will take my apology or not. How many times I hurt him, why did the moon goddess made our life miserable? I want to live
with him happily. It's not going to happen now.
I have to apologize to him now, or this guilt will eat me alive.
knock knock
He didn't answer.
"Come in" he yelled. I opened his door, he was laying on his bed. I knew he  didn't expect me from his expression. He looks so uncomfortable. I used to sleep with him, my arm around his waist and his head on my chest. And I would sleep peacefully. I used to have difficulty sleeping. But after he started  sleeping with me, my sleep came back to normal.
Now it returns to being a mess. I miss us, our comfortable night. I miss you, jimin. But I could never confess to him.
"Jimin, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just got out of control. I was so happy for us. But Lisa got pregnant. But I can't abandon her. She's carrying my baby. Please understand. * I explained to him. I wish he could understand my situation.
"What do you want me to do?" He asked me staring directly at me. I felt so uncomfortable. I want him to live with me too.
"I want you to be with me" I confessed to him.
"And Lisa," he asked me.
"She won't have any problem" I guess she won't have any problem as she already knows about my mate.
"I don't want to live as your mistress"
How could he think like that? I would never make him me  mistress. He  is my mate. My husband my other half.
"It's not like that, I like you, jimin, you are my mate
I confessed to him, hoping he would agree with me.
"And yet you couldn't keep your things in your pants" he accused me. I felt ashamed of myself. But I suddenly remembered his virginity.
"It's not like I'm not the only one" I irritatingly said.
"What do you mean?"
He asked me acting clueless.
"You weren't a virgin"
I simply said, he stared at me, his expression was blank. I couldn't point out what's his feeling right now.
"I regret giving you my Virginity. You are nothing but an asshole" he yelled at me.
"Don't turn the table on me. You weren't a virgin. There's was not even single blood on the bedsheet. " I said while rolling my eyes.
He suddenly looks stressed, then his head hit on the mattress. His breathing started to shorten. He got a panic attack again. Why did I always do this to him? What did I tell him to be triggered? I tried to wake him up. But he didn't seem to respond to my calling. Please God, protect him.
"Jimin, please wake up. "
I called him, he is a panting mess right now. Tears were spreading from his eyes. He fiddle from my body as I burned him. I tried again, but he isn't responding.
Taehyung suddenly came and looked at us, he realises what's happening.
"What did vou do to him" He velled at me and brought jimin to his chest. He caresses his hair and told him
comforting words.
He slowly opened his eyes. He responds to him, not me. He feels protected from him, not me. Suddenly jealousy took over my body. But I pushed the thinking and focused on Jimin. He looks so vulnerable.
He hugged him, I want to hold him too, but it looks like an I'm so far away from his life.
"It's the second time. What happened to you " He asked him. I want to know that too. Why he is having a panic attack?
What is triggering him?
He cried into his chest. "Taehyung I got my childhood memory back"
I heard taehyung took a long break. He got his memory back means he remembers everything now. The things we were hiding from him, he remembers everything now. We didn't want to remember those horrible memories. I throw the flower vase from anger.
"What did you see?" Taehyung asked him not showing anything that I also in the same room. They both didn't mind those noise. I want to know how much he remembers now.
"Someone---someone raped me every, every day, he beats then force himself on me. I was just a 9-year-old boy. How could he do this to me? I feel disgusted by myself" I took a long breath, I did have some doubt about it. But I pushed the thoughts because I thought he would be at least that generous. But why I should have known that he beat us the whole day, we were just a child. I accused him of not being pure when he was forced by someone when he was just a child.
"Don't, you are an angel who fought from too much pain. You are a warrior.
Don't let the past conquer your future.
Your future is in your hand" He told her.
He nodded at him
I couldn't take anymore, those horrible things rushed back to me. These memories will always haunt me. I have to leave now before I spill something.
I want to go for a run My wolf begged me. I rushed out of the room and slammed the door.
I ran into the woods and shifted into my black wolf. I was hungry for blood, even if I killed him. I want to torture him more. The cursed past will always haunt uS.
Jimin was raped, rage was what I'm feeling right now. How could he do this to him? I don't want to remember those horrible things. I buried those things in my heart and become a cold-hearted long time ago.
Yoongi did warn me that, he might get his memories back. But we didn't have any other option when they captured his soul.
I have to inform his parents. I dialled his dad's number.
Ring Ring
"Hello, jeongguk how are you doing? " He asked me.
"We have a problem" I don't how his dad will take this information.
"What happened? Jimin? Is he okay?" He asked me nervously.
"He got his memory back," I told him.
I heard a long sigh. He didn't reply anything.
"Uncle Jackson?"
"Did he remembers everything? " He asked me again.
"Yes" "Oh my god. My baby is he okay?"
*he is having a panic attack again and again. I don't know what to do?" I replied to him. I was feeling helpless. I don't know how should I comfort him when we are not on good terms.
"He knows about the rape?" He suddenly asked me. My throat dried.
"You knew that?" I asked him.
"Yes, he was bleeding," He said
"I want to see him, I think I can handle him now. Bring him back here. " He continued.
"But, I don't want--"
"Jeongguk, please I want my baby back. I want to comfort him. He's having a hard time now. He will come back when he is ready. I'll inform him."
"Okay" I couldn't argue anymore. He can handle him more than me. I only brought pain to his life. Maybe he will be back to normal when he goes back. He will feel comfortable when he's far away from me. I'll miss him.
I quickly typed and texted him.
Alex: Be ready at 4 pm. I'll drop you at your home.
He didn't answer me. He  is not even replying to my single message. Then how will I make up to him? I should have known this is what going to happen to us.
I waiting for him outside, he came back after some time. He didn't even glance at me and climbed into the car.
The atmosphere was so uncomfortable.
Hedidn't even look at me. I didn't start any conversation because I know he didn't want to talk to me. After having uncomfortable silence we reached the
pack.
His dad and mom were waiting for us.
He climbed out of the car and hugged them both.
"Let's go inside, "His mom invited me.
He didn't look at me and ran inside. I expected it already.
I also walked inside with his parents.
Jhope , I want to see my baby brother. "I need to see jhope," I told them. I decided to pay him visit as I know nothing about his condition.
"He  is in yoongi room," He said and directed us to his room. I followed him back.
Jhope was sitting in the bed, lost in thoughts.
"How's his condition?" Jimin asked his mom.
"He didn't speak anything, he couldn't walk anymore. The doctor told us he will walk but it will take some time"
"How long? And why didn't he talk? " I asked this time.
"Doctor told us, it's because of the trauma. He needs more time""Is he sexually assaulted?" He asked nervously.
"No, but they tortured him enough to break him," Luna Samantha told us. My breath hitched how can he handle everything.
I will kill everyone who hurt him. I won't spare anyone. I did get some clues. But I don't know why they need him.
"What about yoongi,how's he holding up?"
I asked them
"He's not in the good state, he's trying to locate who did this to his and why?"
Who? And why? I'll clear this mystery soon.