TO THE STUBBORN MATE

Confusion

I should have asked him about his past long ago. He suffered as much as I did. I should have been more careful with my words. I'm damn sure he won't listen to me from now on. I have to wait for the right time to apologize to him. Should I call yoongi now? I need to talk to him. I didn't even in my dream thought yoongi had to go through those things. Maybe I should call him tomorrow. It's already late.
I laid on my bed while my mind keeps replaying what jeongguk told me. It's keep bothering me that they erased my memories so I didn't have to go through any trauma from childhood. But yoongi and jeongguk suffered every day. The way when I panicked in front of jeongguk it must have triggered something. But he didn't show anything that I'm hurting him too.
When did I become so selfish? I only think about my past. Even when I gave chance for taehyung to be with me, I didn't ask for jeongguk opinion. He's my real mate, I should have considered his feelings too.
The curse ruined our relationship. I choose tae over him. I don't know I choose the right decision. I hope tae won't hurt me in future. I close my eyes
to take a break from unwanted worries as sleep took over my body.
I felt someone is caressing my hair, it must be jeongguk. I knew he can't be angry with me longer. I slowly opened my eyes, it wasn't someone I was expecting.
"What are you doing here?" I asked tae who's lying beside me with a smirk on his face.
"Were you expecting someone else? " i can't tell him what happened yesterday.
"No--I meant when did you come back from patrol? "
"Just an hour ago? What happened to you? you look flushed?"
I hate it when I'm lying to him. He did too much for me. I guess I have to leave jeongguk part. I can't hold into him anymore.
Taehyung's my present and future.
"Nothing, I just missed you" I pecked his lips as he pulled me into a passionate kiss.
"I love you" I confessed to him. But. there's a httle tug in my heart like something is missing from my soul.
'Scar you there?'
"Yeah, '
"What's happening?'
'I can't sense jeongguk wolf. I think our bond is breaking*
'Are you sure?'
'Yes'
I hope we didn't make the wrong choice'
I hope so Jimin, it was me who wanted tae. But I feel something is still missing. '
'Everything will be alright Then scar left me hanging with confusion as tae pulled my cheeks to get attention.
"What's my handsome Scar  saying?"
He asked me while grinning like a kid who just gotta candy. Hi Scar.
"Nothing just usual bickering" I dodged the topic.
"I didn't speak to him in a long time," He said while staring at our intertwined hands.
"He's tired and his mood swing is killing me. He will come around soon" I comforted him.
He doesn't want to talk to both tae and jeongguk. He said he needs some to think.
"Jimin, I have a reason not to talk to them.
I have to figure things out:
I can feel there is something wrong going on with us. You talk to yoongi, and ask him to come here".
"Ah, I forgot to call yoongi. Ok I am calling him now".
I dialled his number after a long ringing he picked up the call.
Yoongi: Hey Jimin, how are you doing?
Jimin: I am good. I need to talk to you about something. Could you please come here?
Yoongi: Did something happened?
Jimin: I will tell you when we meet.
Yoongi : Why are you talking so formally?
It's awkward to hear.
Jimin: Nothing jerk. I thought I could talk to my brother normally. But you jerk can't digest it.
Yoongi: You talking to me formally is however normal. Something is going on in your little brain. Ahm I want to tell you something.
Jimin: What?
Yoongi: jhope is awake.
What jhope woke up and I didn't know that. I am gonna kill this jerk. I hope he is doing well.
Jimin: When did he wake up? When were you going to tell me?
Yoongi: I thought jeongguk might tell you.
From your reaction, he didn't right?
Jimin: jeongguk, he knew.
Yoongi: jeongguk is the first person he asked me to see. I was going to bring him there today evening.
Jimin: Did he asked about me?
Yoongi: Nope. Jeongguk is the only person he wants to talk to. He didn't even talk to me.
Jimin When did they become so close?
Jimin: I don't know.
Yoongi: Well I will see you in the evening. I have some work to finish before I leave here.
Jimin: Ok bye take care.
Yoongi: Bye.
I hang up the call. Why didn't jhope asked about me? Is he upset with me? I didn't even visit him often. What would he want to talk with jeongguk? Did he  know about everything? When did he  become so close to him? Why didn't jeongguk told me that jhope is awake? Maybe he got to know after everything happened yesterday??? So maybe that's why he didn't inform me as we are not on talking terms now. Is he going to give me the silent treatment? It won't work,
right? He can't stay without talking to me, I am damn sure about that. Or what if he didn't talk to me. Maybe he is changed. I can't instigate him when I am already in a relationship with taehyung. Taehyung? Oh my god, he was with me, I forgot about him. I checked nearby I can't see him anywhere. Where did he go? I pulled out an outfit and took a quick shower. I went downstairs there is no single clue of jeongguk. He might be in his office or he is avoiding me. I should prepare something special for hobi he likes vanilla cake and chocolate cupcake.
I have pretty much time so I carefully took out the recipe and mix the ingredients.
After a long time everything was ready I just have to write something on the cake. We didn't spend much time in a while. I miss him. I miss our time together. It was precious. He was out for a long time, so I have to fill her everything in details. He must have a hard time understanding everything that happened in the last seven months. We could have a boys night out. Most importantly I have to talk to him about tae and what went wrong between jeongguk and me and how this curse destroyed our relationship. I don't know how he is going to this news that I choose tae. He had a strong brotherly bond with jeongguk so most likely to be mad at me. I don't know if he  already knew about this issue.
It's getting dark. Why didn't they come back? Yoongi had told me he was coming in the evening now his phone is switched off too. Suddenly a handblocked my sight from behind.
"Guess who?"I heard the annoying voice of my brother.
"Isn't the Jerk who told me he would come in the evening."I bite his hand and looked backwards after his whining.
" What the hell jimin" He slowly massages the area where Item "I prepared food for you. And made him his  favourite desserts. And you are late without him" I glared at him.
"He  came here two hours ago? " yoongi said while checking the time.
"What I didn't see him  here" I was annoyed as hell. Where fuck is he  went?
"He and jeongguk went out. Don't ask me where? I don't know" He explained to me.
He was here for two hours and he didn't even think about see me. I'm just stupid to think my best friend would see me first.
"T'm going to sleep. Good night yoongi" I walked to my door and lay down.
Few minutes went by, I couldn't sleep. My whole thoughts surrounded by why jhope didn't come to see me. And what's so important that they went without seeing me for hours. What are they hiding?
"Baby, you still up? " tae came towards he's covered in dust and sweat.
"Yeah"
"Ok. I'll be right back" tae disappeared into the bathroom and I heard the water running sound. He must be already tired with his duties. I don't want to make him worry about myself too.
He came back with just a towel hanging in his waist. It's too lower than supposed to be. "What are you looking at baby?" He smirked at me.
"Ahm.Nothing I think I just saw a mosquito. " I gulped and took my phone to scroll down god knows what.
He changed into a boxer and jumped into bed.
"I know you want some cuddles. So tell me what happened? " tae spooned me from behind and played with my hair.
"Nothing I was trying to get some sleep" I again lied to him. Well, it's partially true though.
"Why are you trying? You always out just after lying for 5 minutes.
" jhope is here"l whispered. "What? When did he wake up? I saw yoongi I didn't see him. Well, where is that little devil? Tell him to come here.
We can do Netflix night. "
" I meant here in this pack. Not at this house right now. " I explained him. He looks super excited.
"Oh. we can meet him tomorrow then.
Where's he at this time. Yoongi is downstairs though!"
He pulled me into his chest and I can sense his thought is running somewhere else.
"I don't know. He went out with jeongguk that's what yoongi said" Did they got together or what? Where the hell is they at this time. My mind is getting wild. I can't sense Scar anywhere near.
I looked at taehyung's face as he stopped talking. He was smirking. What the hell is going on in his mind. Everyone is making me confused.