Sibongile:The Christian Girl

Chapter 11

It's been two days since I left the Bhengu household ,the family has been blowing my phone up.And of course I ignored all their calls.If they think I will be coming back soon,then they should forget about it.

"Sibongile you have been in those blankets for days"-Anathi's mother says as she makes her way inside my room.I haven't been feeling well lately,I get cold all of a sudden.I find comfort in the warmth of the blankets.
"I don't feel like leaving the blankets soon ,Ma.I promise I will be down for dinner tonight "-I say.
"You better course Anathi's dad is will be taking you to the hospital if you stay longer in those blankets,he believes you are sick"-she says sitting next to me ,rubbing my belly.

"I am not sick,I am perfectly fine "-I say.
"Well then if you say so,I will leave you to it"-she says making her way out.
I hate my emotions lately,they've been all over the place.One minute I'm happy ,one minute I'm sad,I just don't know any more.The most feeling I hate right now,is missing Sthembiso.I have been missing him a lot nowadays.

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"And I cooked your favourite "-Anathi's mother says as she places the plate filled with meaty bones and dumplings.
"Ohh,you the best mother I could ever ask for "-I say.It's currently dinner time and we all sitting like a family around the table.
"So Anathi,how is varsity??"-I ask,looking at him.
"Well it..."-he gets cut off by the knock on the door.
"I will get it "-he says.He stands up heading towards the door.

"She doesn't want to see!!"-we hear Anathi say harshly to the person by the door.
"Let me in boy,or I will break your arm"a familiar voice says.I know that voice even in my sleep.I stand up feeling a little bit of pain in my abdomen ,not minding the pain I make my way to the door.
"What are you doing here??"-I ask him.
"Sibongile,I..I came to fetch you"-he says.
"I don't want to leave,I told the guard to.."
"You told the guard that you needed some space"-he cuts me off.
"I get it,now let's go"-he  continues.
"Sthembiso don't you understand that I do not want to go home yet"-I say as I feel my anger build up,I told you my feelings change.I should be happy that he is here but now he disgusts me.

"Should we take this inside the car"-he says.I look back at Anathi's mother ,she nods her head indicating that I can go.
I enter the car and he starts the engine.
"You kidnapping me now??"-I ask.
"If it looks like that,then yes"-he says ,his eyes on the road with a look that can make you piss yourself.
"Sthembiso don't you understand that I don't want to go with you!!"-I half shout.
"I dare you to call me Sthembiso one more time Sibongile and I will lose control!!"-he shouts.
"Then who should I call you?? Isn't Sthembiso your name?!".
"I am your husband,you call me Ngcolosi!"-he says,I chuckle.
"You lost the privilege of being called by that name when you decided to put your manhood into someone else."-I say with so much attitude.
"Don't you dare talk like that with me!!".
"Or what Sthembiso!!! Uhh what!!? ".

He stops the car at some quiet place and get's out of the car.He opens my side of the door.
"Get out!!".I walk out slowly.
"You right,there's nothing I can do to you cause you are my Wife".
"Then divorce me!! I.Don't.Want.To.Be.Your.Wife"-I say as tears blind my vision.
"I am not divorcing you,You are my wife .We took vows in front of the church,in front of your God!!".
"Vows that mean nothing to you!!
I was forced down your throat,do not act like you care Sthembiso.You would be happier if I was out of your life,you would be with your girlfriend and have sex with her ,without people calling you a cheater.So don't act like you care"-I say ,tears rolling down my face.

"I do care Zoe!!".
"No you don't!! If you cared you wouldn't have left me,if you cared so much you wouldn't have made me feel pain.If you cared enough you would have stood your ground to your family and told them you won't marry me,but instead you took vows with me knowing very well you were going to break my heart.I mean nothing to you,even your family knows that.You took away my pride,I gave it to you.You showed me love and affection,but it was all fake.You left me for months,I was sick and worried about you ,if you still alive or something.But it seems like you didn't care about me nor my feelings.You don't and didn't respect me.I actually liked you,but then it seems like I was wrong liking someone like yourself.Do you know how it feels not being loved,I don't know what love feels like.I just felt it once and it was from you.But you didn't love me,you pitied me.I'm sorry that I'm not educated to be in your standard life.I'm sorry if I feel like a burden to you.It's okay we can end it,just divorce me Sthembiso and we will go our separate ways.You will never see me"-by now my tears are flowing like the Nile river.I'm a sobbing mess,with snort all over.

"Zoe none of what you said is true,I don't pity you,hey..."
"Don't touch me!!!"-I scream as he grabs my arm gently.
"Hey hey I'm sorry,Zoe look at me ,I'm sorry "-he says gently.
"Ahhhhhhhhhh"-I scream as so much pain hits my abdomen.He freaks out as he hears me screaming.
"Wh..what's wrong!!?"-he asks.
"Pain abdomen ahhhhhhhh"-I scream again.This pain is unbearable.Has I cry in pain,I think about my babies.Gosh that's why I'm having pains I have been stressing lately.

"Hey Zoe ,I need you stay with me"-he says softly as my eyes get weak.
"I want to sleep"-I say a bit drowsy.
"No you can't sleep"-he says.
I hear his voice fading and next thing I'm welcomed by darkness.

I hope my babies are okay.