Sibongile:The Christian Girl

Chapter 29

Me and  Anathi loved going to church,church was my best friend.I learned about a lot of things from going to church,when people are already dead they are in peace.They don't need anyone to tell them about their stressful lives here on earth whiles they are in peace.When a person dies he dies,they will not come back no matter how many ceremonies you make for them.I don't believe in communicating with the dead which they call the ancestors.I respect the people who believe in that and do all those things but I never imagined myself doing that.I do believe in visions and that God communicates through them and dreams.uGogo was communicating with me,warning me about the future and everything.If I fully commit myself into this I have to communicate with my ancestors and also not forget God in this journey I'm taking.I have been married for a couple of months and my life changed as soon as I got married to Sthembiso,now my beliefs are to change too.

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"Mkami"-I hear Sthembiso's voice softly as I have my eyes closed.
"Mhmmm"-I hum tiredly.
"Wake up you did to eat"
"I'm not hungry"-I say with my eyes closed,I know me and Sthembiso have a lot to talk about mainly about trust and secrets,but I'm very tired not gonna lie.Pregnancy really makes you tired and grumpy.
"The doctor tells me you didn't eat breakfast"-how was I suppose to eat something whiles I was very angry,those people really made me angry.
"I will eat later"
"No wake up now"-he says picking up my head.Agh why won't this man leave me alone to enjoy my sleep.

"I'm up"-I say getting up.He hands me a McDonald's paper bag which has food in it.I eat slowly as he stares at me.I finish eating and we sit in silence for some time before I decided to speak.
"When were you going to tell me?"-I ask him.
"Tell you what standwa sam?"-he says slightly confused.
"Tell me that the Morttenis are my family"-I say.He sighs loudly before answering me.
"I felt like it wasn't my place to tell you who your real parents were.That's why I didn't tell you cause I wanted them to tell you"-he answers truly.
"Were they ever going to tell me?"-I ask.
"No but they were after a few months cause they didn't want to overwhelm you since you got married and now pregnant.They wanted to give you time first"

"I don't need time Sthembiso and I don't have time.People are dying and I have to take over a Kingdom that I know nothing of and the person who is my mom knows something about it.I was just a girl who lived with her abusive "mother",a girl who didn't know nothing much until she woke up one day and suddenly she was getting married,then she got shot and she wakes up and she has to rule a Kingdom and save people.I am tired,I can not do all those things but innocent people are depending on me Sthembiso on me!!"-I am a sobbing mess.
I realised that I didn't think this situation throughly,I didn't think of the many responsibilities and how many people are counting on me.I have babies to bring on this earth and I have people to save.How am I going to jungle so many things.

"You not alone Sibongile,you have me,our families.I will be your pillar of strength and I will stand right beside you at all means.I love you okay,and I'm sorry you have to feel so overwhelmed by all this.You might not know it but we have plenty of time standwa sam,We will save them I promise"-he says hugging me tight.I love this man,he is always the for me,even though he once hurt me I still do love him.He is the reason I wanted to live and be on this earth.I will never leave him.

"I love you Sthembiso ".