Sibongile:The Christian Girl

Chapter 31

"We have more to tell you"-my father says.Kanti weren't they done.I haven't even processed my mother's story,who would disown their own daughter because she decided to marry a foreigner,wow.
"Fine you can speak"-I say.
"They weren't just enemies but also some people who wanted the "Mortteni Princess"dead,which is you"-he said.
"Why did people want me dead??"-I ask curiously,cause one person cannot wake up and say I'm killing the Mortteni Princess.
"We are in the underground business and not a lot of people want to see us succeeding"-my father says.Underground what??
"The Underground is the Mafia world princess"-Francesco explains.
"We do illegal things"-he continues.
"Like selling guns and weapons.Drugs and diamonds"-Mattia says.

My family members are gangsters,I look at my husband and he looks down.He knew what they do,of course he would know he is friends with my brothers and my father and his father are best buddies.So if his family knows they must be in it too.
"Do you guys do human trafficking??"-I ask,if they do I'm divorcing this man and elope with my babies where they can't find.But of course they will find me,they are gangsters for crying out loud.
"No we don't do those things,we actually protect women from that"-this time my husband replied.So they are really into this.
"Am I still in danger??"-I ask.I don't wanna get angry about this situation,I have roof over my head because of the money they make,so I have no time to act all childish it must have been hard for them.

"We not sure,since you going to take over the Kingdom and all that"-my mother says.
"Can I get one of your hugs??"-I ask her out the blue.I feel emotional right know.
"Of course honey no need to ask I'm your mother"-she says opening her arms for me.I fall into them sobbing.This is a lot of information to carry.
"Shhhh it's okay baby mommy and daddy are here"-she says sweetly.
"Mama"-I say sobbing.I feel more strong hands around me and it's my father.I feel safe in his arms just like the way I feel safe in Sthembiso's arms.I hug my father tightly.I also hug my brothers.
"Finally I have a new person to nag"-Francesco says with a smile on his face.
"Francesco you will leave my princess alone"-my father says sternly at him.
"Our princess dad"-Alessio says.
"Whatever "-he says rolling his eyes making us laugh.

"Okay enough now boys,I need to feed my baby girl and her babies"-she says dragging me to the kitchen.Sthembiso seems nervous and sacred.
"Mama I'm coming back"-I say to her pulling Sthembiso to the room.
"What's wrong??"-I ask him as we enter.
"Aren't you angry about the gangster thing??"-He asks.
"No I'm not"-I say.
"That's why you were nervous?"-I ask him.
"Yeah"-he says not looking me in the eye.He's hiding something.
"Talk Sthembiso"-I say sternly.I see his eyes getting glossy,okay this is serious.
"Hey"-I say softly cupping his face.
"It's okay you will tell me when you are ready,okay?"-I say softly pecking his lips.
"No I want to tell you now"-he says clearing his throat.He takes my hand leading me to the bed.I sit down as he kneels in front of me.

"I was suppose to tell you this a long time ago but I couldn't master the strength to tell you"-he says with pain lacing his voice.Now I'm getting  stressed.
"During the shooting,you were shot at the back near your spine and also near your womb.Y.."-he chokes on his tears as he faces the floor.I hate seeing this side of him.
"Speak to me sthandwa sami"-I say lifting his chin,he doesn't make eye contact with me like he usually does.
"It's my fault Sibongile"-he says sobbing.
"What are you talking about Sthembiso??"
"If I hadn't cheated this wouldn't have happened"-he says sobbing loudly.
"We lost two babies l......"-after hearing him say that part I lost my hearing aid.I couldn't hear a single thing he said.

I lost two babies and no one told me,I thought they were all alive but two of them are dead.Mara why is God doing this to me,haven't I had enough pain in my life.
"Baby"-I feel Sthembiso shaking me.I failed him,I failed him as his wife.I failed to carry his children full term.I'm a failure.
"Baby say something speak to me"-he says softly.
"I failed you Sthembiso"-I say as I let go of my tears.
"You didn't fail me sthandwa sami,I failed to protect our family"-he says,I shake my head indicating him to stop putting the blame on himself.
"No love I'm at fault.If I hadn't cheated on you and left you alone all those nights,this wouldn't be happening to us".
"Don't blame yourself Ngcolosi,it's not our fault.It's the person responsible for this,she is to be blamed for this."
"And I will find her punish her in the most brutal way"-he says clenching his jaw.I brush my hands softly against his jaws to calm him down.

"It's okay,she will be punished"-I say softly.It hurts but we need to be there for each other no matter the circumstances.I will always love this man no matter what.
"I love you"-I say.
"I love you more"
"Let's get you some rest,okay"-he says.
"If you rest with me I will rest"-I say.

We lay in bed until sleep consumes us.We will heal from this pain.