Irrevocable | Kim Mingyu | Seventeen | Svt Ff

Chapter 18

Y/N's Pov :

His hands felt hot against my waist through the fabric of my dress and my palms that were against his chest, clenched on his shirt involuntarily; I was almost frozen on my spot. I took a step back and walked away from there and he let me go.

Grabbing a whiskey from the waiter passing by me, I went upstairs.
I took a sip of it and then inhaled and exhaled two long breaths. Once I felt myself calm down, I leaned forward placing my arms on railings and looked at the others on the down floor. The dance was still going on, Yoonji was with Eric now, laughing while waltzing around. They looked genuinely happy and I couldn't help bur smile fondly.

"They look so good together. Yoonji looks beautiful in her wedding gown, doesn't she?", Lisa asked as she stood beside me.
I straightened my posture and replied to her, "She does".
"But that'll never be you", she said turning her body towards me.
I looked at her questioningly.
"Well, women like you don't get to have a wedding, you know", she said smiling.
"Excuse me?", I asked with a frown.
"What, you don't think I know that you've been sleeping with Mingyu behind my back even after knowing that he's with me?", she asked as if she has caught me.
"Are you pretending or are you really that dense coz even if I was sleeping with him, it has nothing to do with you, Lisa. You and him were over long ago, so stop making everything about you", I said keeping myself as calm as I could.
Lisa : "Really? You think we're over? Then explain why he brought me to this wedding with him. Explaicn why he got me this dress and why he makes love to me in his bed"

I felt like someone was squeezing my heart with their bare hands when she said it. I know that him and I didn't really have a label on us but we did agree on letting each other know if we wanted to end things and that we wouldn't be with anyone else while being in our 'arrangement'. I know I haven't talked to him about ending things like I should've but that is exactly what's making it hurt me more; I haven't ended things with him and yet he went to her. He didn't keep his words.
Lisa : "He has a long list of girls like you so I ain't bothered about it but what bothers me is when such girls try to claim him. You're just one of his girls and that's all you'll ever be, Y/N"
I couldn't bring myself to say something back to her even though I wanted to because right now, my mind was processing her words while my heart felt heavy in my chest.
"And you know what women who spread their legs for 'already taken men' are called? A mistress. A fucking slut", she spewed.
"Mind your fucking language", I said with a clenched jaw.
"You're used", she said with a little laugh, "Don't you feel ashamed of yourself? Or is that what you all do? Is it in your family? Your mother-"
Slap
I couldn't care about her being older than me anymore.
Lisa : "How d-.
Slap again
I slapped her hard.
"Don't you dare, Lisa. I wasn't saying anything but that doesn't mean you're right or that you can spit whatever you want. And you better not bring my mother, my family into your shits", I walked away from there while Lisa stood there dumbfounded, her palm pressed against the cheek that I slapped hard enough to leave my handprint. She wasn't expecting it at all but as realisation kicked in, she stomped her feet in anger, "She's gonna pay for this".

As I made my way towards the secluded backyard of the venue, the tears that I didn't even know I was holding back cascaded down my cheeks. I sat down on the ground with my back against the wall and hugged my knees to my chest. The chillness of January gave me goosebumps.
I felt hurt, humiliated and used. Her words stung me, but knowing I really didn't mean anything to him hurt me more.

I let myself cry; streams of tears kept flowing down until I felt my eyelids becoming heavy. I tried to cover up my tears stained cheeks and puffy eyes and then decided to go back inside.
"Where were you? Here, your purse", Wonwoo gave me my purse that I almost forgot about.
"Thanks but where were you?", I asked.
"Around"......."Everything okay?", he added.
"Yeah".
Wonwoo : "I'll go home now, you wanna come with me?"
Y/N : "No, Jungkook's gonna drop me"
Wonwoo : "Ok, be safe"
I took out my phone and checked it. It had multiple unread texts and missed calls and I called back one of them.
"I'm at the entrance", he said.
I took my leave from Mr. Bang and the others and figured Mingyu wasn't around and neither was Lisa.

He was waiting by his car and opened the passenger seat's door for me as I neared him.
Once we were on the road, he asked, "Are you ok?"
Y/N : "Yeah"
"You cried"
Y/N : "No"
"It wasn't a question. You wanna tell me what happened?", his voice was soft.
"Someone just made me realise how pathetic I am, that's all", I said and he stopped the car on the side of the road.
"What?", I asked timidly as his stare felt overwhelming.
"What happened, Y/N?", he asked seriously.
Y/N : "Let it be, it doesn't matter"
"It does, now tell me"
I wet my lips with the tip of my tongue and said, ".......After Mingyu came back.......", I told him everything I could in short and he listened to it keeping his eyes focused on me.
The tears made their way down my cheeks once again.
Jungkook wiped them with pads of his thumbs, "None of her words are true, she's just envious of you. She has always been like that and none of her opinions matter. You're an amazing person and if Mingyu is ready to let you go, he's an idiot. Please, don't cry. Screw things and those who hurt you. You deserve happiness and you deserve to be treated right, you understand?".
I hugged him, the shifters and gears between the seats distancing our bodies. I snuggled in his arms and sniffled as he gently caressed my head.
After a while, I parted from him, "We should head home now".
Jungkook : "You sure?"
I nodded my head.

Three days later, the cafe was back in business. We were back to our assigned duties. The bell chimed every time someone entered the cafe. The sound lets me know of new customers arrival and provides me a sense of awareness over my surroundings while working.

Jeonghan said he'd go for snacks shopping with me today and then we'd watch the movie 'Exhuma' together. I went home immediately after my shift ended and took a quick shower. Jeonghan and I walked to the nearest supershop and got a bunch of this and that. We came across Jaehyun as we exited the shop.
Y/N : "Hey, how you doing?"
"Good, what about you?", he said as he briefly hugged Jeonghan.
"Fine. So you two met already", I said as a matter of factly.
"Yup. Are you heading home?", Hanie asked Jae.
Jaehyun : "Yeah"
Jeonghan looked at me and I knew what he's indicating.
Y/N : "Would you like to watch a movie with us? At my place"
Jaehyun : "Aa-"
"Of course, hyung would love to", Jeonghan intervened pulling Jae by his shoulder towards him.

My mom seemed delighted to meet Jaehyun. She insisted them on having dinner first and then watch the movie. We all ate together and Jaehyun clicked right in with my family. Hanie and Jae showered my mom with praises about her cooking and the dinner felt really comfortable.
We spread a mattress in the living room and sat on it with our backs leaned against the couch. Soobin stayed with us while my mom went back to her room.
A night filled with comfort, foods, fun and laughter was what I needed to not feel hurt remembering about what Lisa had said and remembering about Mingyu.

"Wake up, kids", my mom's voice felt distant but I forced my eyes open and found her standing infront of me.
I took a look around me; Jeonghan's head's on my lap, Jaehyun's head's leaned on my shoulder and my brother's lying flat infront of my feet. They're all sound asleep.

My mom gently shook Soobin and I tapped on the other two to wake them up.
Jeonghan stirred a bit and opened his eyes. He sat up and realised where he was.
"Jae, wake up", I called out softly and he finally woke up.
They both began apologising though I'm not sure for what exactly.
Mom : "Why are you two apologising? I just woke you up so you could go and sleep on the bed. Soobin, take them to your room and then you can go sleep on mine"
Jaehyun : "Thank you, Mrs. Park but we'll just head home"
My mom checked the clock and said, "It's 5:57 in the morning, go sleep some more and then we'll have breakfast together. I'll make y'all kimchi fried rice with bacons and eggs".

The moment my back touched my bed, I felt my soul levitating. The position I was in before wasn't very comfortable and my muscles were a bit sore so when I cocooned myself under the blanket, sleep took over me once again.

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