Irrevocable | Kim Mingyu | Seventeen | Svt Ff

Chapter 6

(Continue the song)

Y/N's Pov :

Oh!
I realised what I did as soon as that word left my mouth. I remember what he had said earlier and before I could take it back...
"(Gasp), Mingyu, ahh"

"Do not (thrust). Call me (thrust). That (thrust)", I could feel his tip kissing my cervix with each word.
He put my left leg on his shoulder and pressed my thigh on my belly so he could go deeper. He kept hitting a spot in me that had me cumming right there within seconds.
His thrusts hit places I never thought I had in me. He fucked me through my high and I was reduced to a mess under him.
His pace was relentless and I knew that he was just trying to cum. I was near another release and soon it snapped. He stilled for a little to let my shivering body relax and then continued.
I could feel the soreness down there.
After some time, I felt his dick twitch; a few thrusts and then his warm seeds filled me up.
He rested his forehead on mine.
We remained like that as we both caught our breaths and after a while I could feel him getting hard again. He pulled a few inches away and he looked at me with a purposeful smile, "How about round 2?".
"No"
"Yes"
"No"
"Yes"
"No"
"Yes"
"Yes", I said and he slammed it back in.
I kind of hissed but I could take more coz my pussy was still up for it.
I don't know for how long we did it but one thing I know for sure; this guy can really fuck you senseless.

Next morning.

I woke up and found myself in a hotel room, naked under the covers and with no one else around.
All that happened last night clouded my mind in an instant.
It's not that I'm regretting it coz I asked for it but my heart's beating in my throat at the thought of what I did and with whom I did.
I'm glad he's not here coz I needed space in order to not freak out.
I got up and my whole body ached. I'm not someone who'd sleep with anyone and everyone and I did want my first to be a little meaningful but I couldn't have asked for a better one but I'm not gonna let him have the satisfaction of knowing that. Last night I avoided all the warnings flashing and ringing around me asking me to step back but now that it's over, I don't feel so brave anymore.
My thoughts were interrupted when the door to the room opened and Mr. Kim Mingyu walked in.
"Take one of it", he said handing me a packet.
Y/N : "What is it?"
Mingyu : "Morning after pills. Order something for breakfast or we can go out to eat if you want that"
I just realised that we didn't use any sort of protection last night and I do remember his babies dripping out of me.
"We did, I, you...", before I could form a proper sentence he said, "No, we didn't", and went inside the bathroom.

I sat there blankly for some time and then took the medicine.

Flashback (Last night) :

After we were done, he finally pulled his dick out of me but froze suddenly.
Y/N : "What happened?"
"Nothing, I'll be right back", he said and came back with towels.
He cleaned me up and I let him coz my eyes threatened to shut off as sleep was taking over me. He asked if I was on birth control and I told him I wasn't and then fell asleep.

End of flashback.

I heard the water running in the bathroom. Without any more thoughts, I put my clothes on and left the hotel as fast as I could.

I rang the doorbell and Soobin opened the door. "Mom, noona's home", Soobin shouted and let me in and I just went straight to my room. I locked the door and plopped on my bed. I felt some warm liquids flowing down my cheeks and I didn't even know why I was crying. I tightly hugged my pillows and cried myself to sleep.
My mom woke me up for lunch and after a nap and good food, I had enough strength in me to think about the whole situation.
I made myself a cup of coffee and sat near the window watching the sunset. I recalled everything that happened last night. I know I was drugged and the sensations were really strong. I remember that I was the one who made the first move and wanted to spend the night with Mingyu. I also remember how he made me feel and how he took care of me before, during and after it.
Consent from both sides were there, care was there, the sex was amazing and I can't find any bad in this whole thing. Then why am I feeling this way?
Maybe it's because he is my best friend's brother? But I know that this won't cause any issue among us.
Maybe it's because our relationship never included anything like this so it's a foreign feeling for me.
Maybe I'm worried how things are gonna be between us now.
Maybe I'm embarrassed because I gave in to my 'nightmare' voluntarily.
Or maybe I just can't accept the fact that sleeping with the person I thought I disliked my whole life felt so right.
Whatever it may be, I shouldn't stress myself out about it.
I haven't done anything wrong, it was just two adults having sex without any strings attached and we both know it.
What started in that hotel room, ended there and I'm positive that I'm just another one night stand added to his list.
It won't be awkward between us and we'll be back to how we were, he won't tease me about it and soon enough he and I both will forget about last night.
I know I shouldn't have left him like that but I'm sure he understands that I needed to get away at that moment.
But now that I've processed everything, I can just be how I've always been and face him instead of running away.

I decided to take a good bath and then do a little skin care.
I took off my clothes and stood infront of the bathroom mirror.
There were bruise like marks here and there covering a good part of my skin.
I stepped inside the tub and closed my eyes letting the warm water soothe me.
After a while, moments from last night started playing in my mind out of nowhere. I remember his breath, I remember his touch, his voice and his kisses, and I remember how he felt inside me...I opened my eyes hastily. Brushing off the thoughts, I finished my bath and wore something comfy.

Mom : "Y/N, Jeonghan is here"
I opened the door and a very unpleased Jeonghan walked in.
Jeonghan : "Where's your phone?"
Y/N : "I guess it's still in my purse"
Jeonghan : "What's the point of having a phone if people are gonna have to rush to your home just to know if you've reached home safe? I just woke up a while ago and was feeling irresponsible for not checking up on you earlier but then here you are not picking up your goddamn phone!"
"Hey, I'm okay", I couldn't help but smile knowing that he cared so much about me.
"Don't smile, and I'm leaving", he said, still annoyed.
"No, you're not", I said. "Go wash your face, we're doing skincare"
Jeonghan : "I don't want to"
Y/N : "Yes, you do"
"No"
"Yes"
"No"
"Yes"
"No"
Deja vu.
Y/N : "Do as I say before I chain you up, peel your skin off and use it as face mask"
He narrowed his eyes and said,"You're lucky I'm trying to be well behaved these days".

We were both lying on my bed side by side; face masks on and "Falling Down By The8" playing on my speakers.
I remembered that I haven't taken my phone out of my purse yet and the next thing I realised is that yesterday I didn't carry any purse to begin with.
"OH NO", I shouted and sat up on the bed.
"Calm down, woman. What would people say if I died just because you screamed?", Jeonghan said with his hand on his chest.
"We need to hurry", I said and dragged him down the stairs.
Jeonghan : "Where are we going?"
THUD
Jeonghan banged his head on something because of the way I was pulling him but checking on him wasn't on my mind at that time.
"What happened?", my mom came out of the kitchen with a spatula in her hand.
"My phone, oh god, my phone", I said while still dragging Jeonghan.
"It's here", my mom brought it from the counter and handed it to me.
Y/N : "Where did you get that?"
Mom : "Mingyu brought it. I asked him to stay but he said he had to go. I forgot to give it to you and where do you think you two were going with face masks on?"
"Are you okay?", I asked my phone because it had some memories and important stuffs in it.
"Yes, just a little concussion maybe but I'm fine, thank you for asking", Jeonghan said with a straight face and then made a sulky one.
"Aww", I rubbed his head and we all laughed.

After having the tasty lasagne that my mom made for us, Jeonghan was in the living room talking to her while I organised my room a bit.
Knock, knock.
I turned around and it was him.
Y/N : "Hey"
"Hey"
"I'll be going now", Jeonghan said.
"Stay a little more"
Jeonghan : "I gotta go, work"
Y/N : "Alright"

Weeks went by and somehow Mingyu and I haven't crossed paths yet and a part of me is relieved about it.
I have been thinking about doing a part time job for some time now and I've finally taken the initiative.
I dropped my cv at the coffee shop near my college and they contacted me a few days ago. They wanted me to do 'one day trial' and now I'm officially a part-timer there.
The coffee shop isn't small and has a pleasant interior and the owner, Mr. Bang Shihyuk seems like a good man. I made three friends; Yunjin and Heeseung who are part-timers like me and Karina who joined with me but as a full-timer.
Our coordinator, Jessi unnie is very welcoming and is a straightforward, fun-to-be-around person.

I work there 4-9pm, 4 days a week and Jeonghan, Jisoo comes to the cafe every now and then.
One evening, the three of us were talking about how we all are doing something to earn and learn. Jeonghan's been helping his dad in his business for now and Jisoo got a job at a clothing store.
Jisoo : "I'm so happy for us. Even Mingyu oppa started his own business of import and export"
Jeonghan : "Good wishes to him"

Everything's been going well. Now here's the problem; how can everything be okay for more than two days straight in my life? Something's gotta be wrong. I can't have so many good things happening at once - it's too dangerous.

Guess what?

It's just the silence before the storm.