Jennie Kim, the heartthrob of his college, leaves every girl smitten, yet he remains unattainable. His nemesis is Lalisa Manoban, the queen bee and owner's daughter, engaged in a constant prank war. Little do they know, beneath the rivalry, Lalisa m...
It’s been 6 months since I left Korea and came to New Zealand. I have no regrets about taking the baby away without seeing Lisa.
My baby boy’s name is Kim Jain, but we call him KJ. KJ had a fever, so I brought him to the hospital.
The doctor is examining him now, and I asked worriedly, "Doctor, why did KJ suddenly get a fever?"
The doctor smiled and said, "Jen, I’ve explained many times that young children often get fevers. There's nothing to worry about, but you always get overly concerned."
"Doctor, how can I not worry? I am the only one here for him, both as a dad and a mom. That’s why I get so worried," I said in a sad tone.
"Jen, you’re doing a great job raising KJ, giving him both a mother's and father's love. I’m sure KJ's mom would be happy to see that," the doctor said. I nodded in agreement.
"Okay, wait here. I’ll get KJ’s medicine," the doctor said. I replied, "Okay."
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I sat down in front of KJ, who was looking at me. I smiled and mumbled, "I’m sorry, my baby. I know I’ve lied to everyone, saying your mom passed away. But you know what she said about you. I never want you to find out the truth, and I don’t want you to ever meet that heartless woman."
"Jen, why are you crying?" the doctor asked. I quickly wiped my tears.
"No, I’m not crying. Some dust got into my eyes, that’s all," I said with a fake smile.
"Hmm, Jen, I’ve known you for only four months, not very long, but I can tell you’re lying. Why don’t you admit that you miss KJ's mom?" the doctor said. I just nodded.
How could I explain that I remember her with hatred, not longing?
"Jen, here’s KJ’s medicine. He only has a slight fever, but if there are any other problems, let me know, okay?" the doctor said, changing the topic.
I took the medicine and asked, "Okay, can we go now?"
"Yeah," she said, then looked at KJ, "Bye, little handsome KJ."
KJ looked at the doctor and started to cry, so I quickly picked him up and said to the doctor, "I think KJ is hungry. We’ll be going now."
"Okay, bye," the doctor said. She is really a humble and kind person.
I left the hospital, got into the car, and took out the bottle of fresh cow’s milk that we get daily from a dairy farm. We boil it and give it to KJ. I put the bottle’s nipple in KJ’s mouth, and he started drinking.
KJ is very handsome, just like me – my carbon copy.
Meanwhile...
We reached home, and KJ fell asleep, so I put him to bed in my room and then went to the garden. I was sure mom would be there.
From a distance, I saw mom planting in the garden. I went up to her and said, "Good evening, mom," kissing her on the forehead. She usually takes care of KJ when I go to university in the morning.
"Good evening, son," she greeted me back. I sat next to her and started helping with the planting. Mom often plants in the garden. We don’t live in the city but in a village area where the environment is very nice. I want to raise KJ here so he grows up to be a good person.
"How is KJ now? What did the doctor say about his fever?" mom asked. While picking up a plant, I replied, "The doctor said there’s nothing to worry about; it’s not a high fever."
"Hmm, okay. But I want you to take him to a good senior doctor tomorrow for a check-up," mom said in a serious tone.
I nodded and said, "Okay, mom."
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𝐋𝐢𝐬𝐚'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕:
It’s been 6 months, and we still have no idea where Jennie took the baby. My dad says they're still searching.
I deeply regret everything I said and did to Jennie. I am so ashamed of myself. I should never have been jealous of his mom.
Sehun was right when he said, 'A man's first love is his mom, and a woman's last love is her son.' Only now do I fully understand how much of a mess I created.
Jennie didn’t give me attention for 3 weeks, and I did all this. I don’t understand why I acted this way. I really love Jennie, but I ended up hurting him the most. I’m such a terrible and selfish person.
Jennie must hate me now. I hate myself too.
I hope that one day Jennie will forgive me and that we can go back to the way things were, but that might just remain a dream. Jennie will never forgive me.
I hate myself for calling our baby boy, the symbol of our love, bad blood.
"Monkey, are you crying again?" Rosé said. I quickly wiped my tears. Rosé sat down next to me.
By the way, Jisoo oppa and Rosé are dating now, and I am very happy for them.
"Lisa, we’ve told you many times not to overthink things. Look at yourself; you’re getting thinner day by day," Rosé said. I sighed.
"Chipmunk, you know I’m terrible. Why don’t you just say it?" I said, crying. She hugged me, and I hugged her back, crying on her shoulder.
"Shhh, you’re not terrible, Lisa. Stop blaming yourself for everything. Maybe it was just a bad time, or maybe it wasn’t the right time for you two to be together. Focus on your career now so that in the future, your son will be proud of you. Don’t worry, Jennie loves you a lot; he will forgive you," Rosé said.
I nodded. Three months ago, I joined SM Entertainment as a solo artist, and now I’m in training. We have a group consisting of me, Rosé, Irene, Nayeon, and Karina.
"Rosé, what do you think he named the baby?" I asked because these kinds of questions keep popping into my mind.
"How would I know what he named the baby? But what name did you choose for him?" Rosé asked.
I lifted my head from her shoulder and said, "Leo."
"Hmm, nice name, but why Leo?" Rosé asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Because I had a dream when Jennie and I were together. In that dream, our son's name was Leo." Tears welled up in my eyes as I remembered that dream. I never wanted it to come true, but it did because of me. In that dream, we were separated, and now we really are.
"Hey, Lisa, please don’t cry. Let’s go to sleep before the other girls in the dorm wake up," Rosé said, trying to change the subject.
I nodded and said, "Okay, let’s go."
We sleep in the same room but have separate single beds.
"Lisa, don’t cry anymore, okay? Everything will be fine. This is just a test of time that fate is putting you through. Think of it as a trial, not a punishment. Everything will be alright eventually," Rosé said and lay down on her bed.
"Okay, goodnight and thanks for always supporting me. I love you," I said and lay down on my bed.
"Goodnight and I love you more, Lili." Rose said.
'Goodnight, my love and my baby boy Leo. I am really sorry. Please come back to me,' I thought as I drifted off to sleep.
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