My time

chapter 15

Han's pov
"Hyung" I said as tears fell down my cheeks...chan hyung was crying hard on shoulder while grabbing his boyfriend's hand.
"They are gone...I...I lost my parents jisung " he answered sobbing, when we reached the hospital we were informed that my aunt and her husband died on the site...I can't believe this...I didn't get along with them but they were my family...I never thought I would lose them like this.

I looked toward the boys who were watching us with sad teary eyes. Jeongin joined us after Minho called him so all of us were here.
"I have no one left...I lost everyone..."
" You have me hyung...us" I said smiling at the rest "I know it is not the same...and I know that no matter what I say it won't change anything or make it better...I am not as good as you with making people feel better...but we got you hyung" I said pulling him into a tight hug. My cousin has always got my back and it is time for me to do the same.Only our soft sobs filled the empty hospital halls as I rubbed the older's back.

(After one week)
" are you sure this is the best thing to do?" I asked changbin hyung as soon as chan hyung left the room to drag more of his things.
"It is still soon but I don't want him to live alone in his parents' house...I can take care of him here" the shorter answered making me sigh but nod, he asked my cousin to move in with him. Changbin hyung is living alone since his parents are out of town...I like the fact that he has someone by his side but I don't want him to regret leaving his house, his wound is still fresh...each corner of his home reminds him of his parents but...I just don't know anymore.

"I know you are worried jisung....but i got him...chan hyung is one of the most important people in my life,I will never hurt him" changbin hyung said pulling me out of my thoughts.
"I believe you hyung...please take care of him" I answered making him nod eagerly.
" I still have a lot of things downstairs and you are here chatting...come on get to work" chan hyung said entering the room...he had a small smile on his lips but you can see that it was not sincere...the seven of us didn't want to stay away from him for the past week trying to make sure he is fine, he is acting like he is but we know he is not...how could he? He just lost them...I didn't even get the chance to talk to them like he wanted...were they really worried about me? Did they really care about my well-being? I guess I will never know.

I chuckled before I made my way downstairs, as he said he had a lot of stuff...he brought almost everything...as if...as if he was not planning to go back to his house again...I took a deep breath taking a box out.
I was heading back upstairs when I saw a familiar figure...a man with long blonde hair...he was back facing me so I didn't get to see his face...without thinking I dropped the box on the ground running toward him.
"Yah, Jisung " Chan Hyung yelled behind me clearly because I threw the box however I didn't pay him any attention...I didn't see Hyunjin since he ran from the hospital not even once.

"Hyunjin," I said gripping his shoulder.
I froze when he turned around" Excuse me do I know you?" A stranger said looking at me.
"I...I apologise i thought you were my friend "i said pulling away...he nodded before he left.
"Jisung what was that?" I glanced behind me to see chan and changbin hyung.
"I...nothing..." I said taking a deep breath" don't worry about it" I added, without waiting for an answer I walked back toward his car to grab the box and walk inside changbin hyung's apartment.

I miss him...I know it is hell of weird but i miss him so damn much.. it is like my heart...my brain... every fibre in my body misses him...wants him...I lose my damn mind about why I am feeling this attached to a stranger I barely know...this is not normal is it? I mean not even love at first sight should feel like this...does it?
Soon after the two older came to join me...none of them asked me about what happened earlier as I kept arranging chan hyung's belongings which I was thankful.
I am worried sick about hyunjin...where is he?