My time

chapter 17

Hyunjin's pov
" idiot" I whispered clenching my hair...jisung's words didn't leave my brain. No jisung didn't leave my brain for the past few days, I just couldn't get him out of my mind...I wish I could tell him the truth...I wish that I could stand in front of him and tell the younger one about everything. I want to tell him that I am a time master and that I messed his life up...I want to tell him that his feelings for me are not true. He developed them because I tricked him.

I hate myself for sure that I managed to keep him alive but I caused the death of his aunt and her husband...I caused the death of a lot of people, i changed fai5h of a lot more too. I have no idea what will happen next...the timeline keeps changing and some pieces of what the future may hold came up to me, however they keep on changing too since they depend on current event that I have no idea what they hold.
The timeline changed again when lee felix and yang jeongin got together, they were not supposed to get with each other now...in matter of fact they were never supposed to be together.

Indeed that the two boys were in love but the death of Jisung brought chan and changbin's relationship to an end because the older shut himself off from everyone...everything became an even bigger mess when chan and jeongin slept together which broke felix's heart and their friendship...lee minho and Kim seungmin were left in the middle of this chaos. I took a deep breath rubbing my forehead, this is bad...this is what was supposed to happen in the original timeline it is a relief that these events didn't occur but what if something worse happens? I can't predict the future and I hate that.

"I found you" my heart almost drop when a familiar said behind me...I literally jumped looking back at jisung with wide eyes clenching my heart.
"Oh, sorry did I scare you?" He added chuckling nervously.
"You almost gave me a heart attack jisung, from where did you even come from?" I asked.
"Well, I looked everywhere for you...the park, near minho hyung's coffee , you seemed to love hanging out near that area, I almost lost hope when I didn't find you...I was going back home and didn't expect you to be hiding behind a tree...in front of the building I live in...so I pretty much i am not the one at fault here" he answered making me groan internally, of course I will be near the places you go. It is the only thing that gives my heart some relief.

" so Mr hwang, are you stalking me?" He asked pulling me out of my thoughts.
"What?no of course I am not...I was passing by...I am going home..."
"I think I made it clear that I know you don't have a home...and why are you hiding if that's true" he said scanning,he took me off guard when he gasped loudly leaning in toward me" Hwang hyunjin, are you perhaps in love with me that you find it hard to stay away from me?" He added making me freeze.
"What..."
"Because if you do, I feel the same...just as I told you" he cut me off.

"Jisung, you don't know me..."
"And I want to hyunjin"he said staring right into my eyes " you are not a vampire right?" He added surprising me once again.
" a vampire?" I said confused.
"Don't mind me, you said you are not running from the law and you are not a criminal...i was crossing what you could be...I mean a vampire could make sense since you ran from the hospital may be because you are immortal and hiding your identity" he said humming to himself, at this point he seemed as if he was talking to himself not me.
"Jisung, I was admitted into a hospital because I was sick...vampires are immortal and invincible to human sickness" I said laughing at his serious expression, I mean I was not supposed to get sick too...but whatever.

"Yeah I guess I thought about it because I was watching Twilight yesterday...wait a damn minute "he yelled the last words." You said vampires are invincible to human sickness does that mean they exist are you another creature..."
"Jisung calm the hell down" I said gripping his shoulders, God he lost it.
"I am just messing with you hwang " he laughed touching my hand, my breath hitched at his touch...the moment we locked eyes it felt like time had stopped...how does he have this effect on me? Just because of our bond?
"You are coming with me" he said gently caressing my hand.
"Where..."
"To my house...you are staying with me until you tell me what is going on with you...you have nowhere to go and I live alone...I..."
" I am a stranger....you are letting a damn stranger into your house" I cut him off.

"If you are a killer then you can kill me...but I am not letting you out of my sight again" he said pulling me with him.
"Jisung..."
"Shhh, no other word" the shorter said walking even faster if that's possible compared to how fast he was pulling me since the start.
"I..."
"I am serious hyunjin"he cut me off throwing me a glare.
"You really changed" i whispered as soon as we reached his apartment, he was about to grab his keys to open the door but he stopped staring at me.
"Did you say something?" He asked confused.
"Don't mind it" I replied making him hum.

He nodded before he opened the door" you came here last time...i presume that you still remember where my room and the kitchen are?" He asked making me nod.
"Great, now I will show you the guests room" he said guiding me inside.
I glanced around the place, I see a lot of new furniture compared to the last time I was here." I have no idea why i bought a house with an extra room, when the old me would never invited anyone here but I guess it came off handy after all...this is your room hyunjin" he added pushing me inside the room. I frowned looking around everything here seemed new as if...as if.. " Did you prepare this for me?" I asked staring at him.
"And they say blonde people are dumb" he said laughing." Relax I know it is dyed, I was joking...yeah I prepared it for you...that's your closet, I picked some clothes for you" he added, well actually I am naturally blonde...I was born with blonde hair for some reason which was uncommon for Asian time masters, I asked my parents a lot about it because I felt different but they didn't know why...I guess that's what the gods wanted...it is not a big deal anyway.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked swallowing hard.
"Believe me I have no idea why I am doing this too." He said taking a deep breath " Since the moment I found out that I didn't have a tumour it has been like a light switched inside me...I was always a pessimist...I saw the dark side of this word...I blamed myself for the death of everyone i cared about" he continued chuckling " actually when you got sick I blamed myself as I told you...normally I would have shut you out of my life completely, but it is different now...as I said I am confused...but since that incident...since the moment I laid my eyes on you....my whole life changed, it is weird I know that...but I feel better...I am attracted to you and it made me feel better...it is like you helped me without even knowing it....but you did...and now I want to help you"he finally said giving me a wide smile.
"You don't really like me jisung " i said shaking my head.

"I have never been in a relationship before...I never really loved anyone too...I found romance and couples cringey so I am sure like hell I have no idea what loving or liking someone feels like...but what I know for sure that all I think about is you...when I saw you sick...I felt...I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest...I did not even feel like that when my grandpa died hyunjin and he is the closest person to me...it scares the hell out of me...it is like I am some under a spell whenever I am around you but I...I just can't let you" he said looking down his lap" I know it may sound messed up...I feel like a psychopath that has fallen in love with someone...but it is how I feel" he added.

Well he is under a spell, since the moment I bonded us together we became inseparable...he is drawn to me as much as I am drawn to him...the only difference is that my feelings are sincere while his are just because of what i did, I found myself staring at him lost inside my thoughts, what scares me the most is that he will hate me if finds out about the truth...I played with him...his feelings his life...clearly I am stuck here until Cronos gets me out of this earth, when will that happen? I have no idea....I can't live away from jisung...I can't be with him without telling him the truth too. So I am pretty much out of options...I am lost and I have no idea what I should do?
"I will leave you to rest, I will prepare some dinner at the main time...well order...is pizza fine with you?" Jisung finally spoke breaking the silence.

"You don't have to...."
"Pizza it is" he cut me off running out of the room, he confuses me sometimes he is shy and awkward and the other he is bold and straightforward.
I took a shower after he left and changed into some of the clothes he bought me, they were surprisingly the right size,it felt nice...It felt like I had a home again...I have no idea how I am going to repay him for all this...I was so agitated for the rest of the night thankfully jisung brought me the pizza to my room and left to give me space.
I didn't even realise it when I fell asleep it is been a long time since I had a comfortable bed to sleep in...I miss home...I miss my parents so much when will my punishment end...no....Will my punishment ever end...