Tainted

Seven/Past(Cyrus)•

🎵Chapter Song~ Bad Idea by Chris Grey

"What" Axel spit out his drink.
"You heard what I said" as I bought the glass cup of whiskey to my lips.
"Yes I did hear you but still" he glared.
"We didn't have sex okay so stop looking at me like I did"
"No maybe not sex but you still had a moment"
"Just say it"
"Say what" he looked down at his drink as his finger circled the ring.
"We both know what you wanna say"I finally looked at him, his grin annoying the fuck out of me.
"Look all am saying is maybe next time leave a sign on your door so I don't interrupt" my elbow met his side.
"Your a dick"
"Cy she's gonna be your wife, hence that your gonna have to have an heir sooner or later"
"I know that but there's another way she can have my baby"
"Right and your just not gonna have sex for the rest of your marriage"
I smacked my head lightly on the table"Why did I have to choose her" I moaned out.
"Is this about what happened at Apollo's ceremony" I looked at him and he knew I was about to punch him.
The night were I fucked up my relationship with Apollo.Yes it most definitely is
"If he find outs you know for a fact there's gonna be some hand throwing and a lot of punches " I said.
"Nobody has seen him for three years"
It's about my brother
Three yea-
She was gonna tell me than my mom ruined everything.
"Do you know why nobody's seen him"
"Nope, but you know the person that would is sleeping in your bed just right upstairs" he grinned.
"Fuck you"
"In your dreams Cy, even then am not your type" he ticked and went upstairs
"Goodnight to you too asshole" I shouted as he walked up"Hmm" he said than a sound of a door closed, but I couldn't shake this feeling like someone was behind me. I placed my drink down and turned around to look, that's when I see Artemis standing with her legs crossed and rubbing her arm. Fuck I turned back to my drink and placed my head back taking a big ass drink.
"Why were you and Axel talking about Apollo" her voice came out shaky, I knew she was probably nervous we haven't talked to each other for a week after what happened, I would sleep when she was sleeping and be gone by the time she woke up.
"We were trying to find him so we can send the invitations to your family" I lied but she didn't need to know that.
"He's gone" her voiced cracked at gone What did she mean gone.
I turned my stool and faced her"What do you mean by he's gone" I questioned. I don't know if it was the way I said it or something else but tears filled in her eyes and she was sobbing quietly"Artemis" I got up and for whatever reason in me placed my hand on her shoulders and pulled her into an embrace. She finally stopped holding back, her sobs washing out of her I placed my chin softly on her head and kissed her.
"Am sorry" she said as she pulled back.
"You have nothing to apologize for"
"I ruined your shirt" a hiccuped cry came out, I knew she was talking about the water stains that she placed but I didn't give a fuck about a shirt I cared about her.
"It's a shirt Artemis I can always get a new one"
"Am sorry" she softly said as her gazed hit the floor.
"Did Apollo" how do you say die or is died in a way that doesn't pull someone's heart strings, but guessing the way she was looking at me she read my thoughts"No he isn't but that's what it feels like"
"What do you mean"
"My family was attacked by someone who kne"she cut off"Who didn't like my father, he wanted me to marry his son"
"Who"
"I can't say, I really can't"
"Artemis, if this guy is dangerous and is looking for you I need to know"
"Cyrus he's dead, I promise he is"
"What happened to your brother"
She turned away from me and shock her head"Artemis talk to me..please" my voiced cracked at the end, it must of done something because she turned around but god I wish she didn't, the pain in her eyes the pain of losing someone so damn fucken important. Everything in me just shattered.
"He attacked my brother, Apollo fought him because of me" she was hyperventilating, the more she spoke the more my heart ached"Apollo" I don't know what happened, but what did was breaking her"Artemis" I grabbed her the next thing I knew we were both on the floor her head buried in my chest, her shoulders moving rapidly with her cries. I wasn't a sentimental guy I haven't been for ten years, I locked and pushed all my feelings down after my dad died but seeing her cry in pain was making me feel like that boy that lost his father.
"He was in the verge of death state, his body was sliced in half just barely keeping him alive, he technically died in my arms"she looked at me, her under eyes and cheeks stained with tears"What do you mean technically"
"My father asked Karina for help"
Karina..she was the oldest witch in James Town, everyone knew about her, how making deals with her basically ruined you.
"He's been in a coma like sleep for three years"
"Am so sorry"I wiped her tears away with both my thumbs.
"He's not dead, but in my soul,my heart and my wolf"
The bound between twin wolves is just a strong as mate bound, losing him would have broke her in a way I couldn't imagine.
But it did
"Is that why you were crying when I found you"
"My dad as blamed me for everything that happened, he disowned me and threw me out the house in the middle of the night as it was raining" her voiced cracked. What a fucken asshole
"Am sorry that all that happened to you" I pulled her hair back behind her ear.
"Am sorry for breaking down on you" she patted my shirt trying to dry the wetness on my shirt.
"It's alright" Don't do it..It's a bad idea
"How about we get you to bed huh" I cleared my throat.
"Yeah, sounds good"
"Um Artemis"I knew it wasn't the time to bring it up but I had to.
"Hmm"
"My mother is getting really impatient with the wedding" she looked down"Am guessing she's wanting us to move with the wedding"she asked.
"Yeah, she wants the whole Luna marking to be done with already, to make appearances"
"Ah right"
Why the hell was this so fucken awkward.
"Are you okay with that"
"I don't really have a choice do I"
"Artemis"
"Am going to bed, I'll see you tomorrow huh"
"Artemis"I shouted.
"Just drop it"she shouted back.
She took off and the sound of a door slammed followed.
Ugh why do we always go back and forth with each other.
I grabbed my whiskey bottle and started drinking it.
"Is everything alright" I heard my mother's voice.
I don't fucken need this right now
"Yes everything is fine, now go back to bed"I bought the bottle to my lips.
"Cyrus talk to me" talk to her
"Am fine"
"Your not fine, I know when my own son isn't fine"
I turned to face her"You don't know anything about me" I snapped.
"You really think I don't know you"
"Yes you don't, in your head you remember the thirteen year old version of me, but am twenty five years old now"
"You think I don't know that"
"Do you, cause your still treating me like when I was twelve, the little boy you remember died ten years ago"
"I know that Cyrus, okay I know that"her voice cracked." You don't think I know that I was a horrible mother who let her thirteen year old son to fend for himself and take care of his little brother"I don't need this..not tonight
"Do you know all the nights I cried myself to sleep asking and praying it was me that died instead of your father" One sentence to make me finally look at her in the way that a son should look at his mother crying, not a stranger.
"I ruined the beautiful light in you, I ruined everything" she walked closer to me, for once in ten years I let her break down every wall in me.
"Am sorry Cyrus for everything, losing your father broke everything in me, he was my reason for air the joy in my laughter"
"Mom" once those words tasted bitter and crawled under my skin but this time they felt the embrace and love, everything that was messing just by one word.
"I didn't believe in love, when I saw you how you lost dad I told myself I will never allow myself to fall in love cause I didn't want that pain, every good feeling just reminded me how broken you were"
"I forced myself to push everything aside and be the man that dad wanted, I made this pack stronger but that took everything from me, the joy, I lost myself making this family great again and told myself to never fall in love"
"Love is the most beautiful thing in the world Cy, yes it has its many heartbreaks but in the end I was blessed to know what true love felt like" she cupped her hand on my cheek, my icey wall around my heart yearning for the warmth of her touch.
"Am so sorry that I let you face the horrible side of life by yourself, I should have let you grieve and token care of you and Alec"she pulled me closer to her, her forehead on mine"Am sorry for letting the darkness consume the light in your heart" I don't know what came over me, maybe it was because my mother and I finally aired everything out, or maybe I needed her more than I admitted to myself but whatever it was everything just washed out of me.
"Come here" she pulled me closer to her, I wrapped my arms around her allowing myself to finally let out the anger, frustration and guilt out of me."I got you this time"she whispered.I got you
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After my mom and I sat down and talked, I finally went upstairs to take a shower.🎵
You don't know all the things you do to me pup
Like what
What do you want pup
Just shut up and kiss m