Tainted

Twelve/Home (Artemis)

🎵Chapter Song~ Only Love Can Hurt Like This by Paloma Faith (Off the Cuff)

It's been three weeks after our heated moment and than some more I can't believe me and Cyrus had sex Obviously I knew we had to at some point how else would he get his heir but still, I didn't ever think it would feel this amazing. Better than the first time How is it that the man that took my virginity is also the man that will have me the last time.

"So what does it say!" Nyla shouted through the door.
Here I was sitting on the toilet being so nervous, more nervous than I have ever been in my life! " I still haven't taken it" I lied. I have but I just haven't turned it to see.
"Artemis Rae St James you need to take it" She hit the door.
I've been staring at the back of the pregnancy test for the past ten minutes, I was nervous to know because I was scared of both outcomes. One was positive which meant I was finally pregnant and taking a fucken potion to hide my secret the other was negative which meant I wasn't pregnant and I would have to keep having sex trying my best to not fall in love with this man.
I didn't know which one was the worst-case scenario Would falling in love really be bad? Yes! No! He's my mate, he was gonna be the father of my kid or children! He was my husband!
I put the test on the counter What.Are.You.Doing "Nyla I can't do this" I cried, a few seconds later the door opened and closed, I felt her hands on my thighs"What's wrong?" she asked, lifting my chin to look at her.
"All I can think is, that am not his real mate" a tear fell hitting her hand. "Artemis"
"No, before you say the blood bond make us mates, it doesn't"
"Artemis, no matter what happens you will be his mate" why doesn't she get it..Why did I put myself in this situation!
"Am not, Tyler is and I was rejected he's my mate not Cyrus"
She shock her head"He's married Arti, you have the right-"
"To what destroy a womens life, who ever she is she belongs with Cyrus not me" What the fuck am I doing? My heart started pounding, my mind was flooding with reality how the fuck did I allow myself to be this damn delusional. I got up and rushed to the sink "Artemis calm down"
"I need to leave"
"What?"
"Nyla I can't keep living in a fantasy he is not mine to have, he's not MINE! " I couldn't do it anymore and broke "Why the fuck did I do this to myself" I cried. "Am gonna ruin everything, Fuck! I already did"
"Artemis before you do something please think clearly"
"For once I am, it took me sitting on a toilet staring at a pregnancy test to finally get it through my stupid brain" I shouted. "I may destroy this, and make him hate me along with his family but when he finds her he will finally understand that this was for the best"
"Artemis"
"Please Nyla get me out of here before I ruin everything again, I can't ruin a women's life by taking what's not mine" I can't put a women through with what he did to me, yes he rejected his mate but I couldn't and wouldn't let Cyrus reject his real mate because he had a Luna and children. That pain was not worth my happy ending.
"Are you sure" she asked.
Cyrus will hate me for doing this, he would never talk to me again but in the end it's what best. Yes it would kill me, but I couldn't live with myself or Cyrus for rejecting his real mate. I had to do this.
"Yes" I exhaled."I've never been so sure in my life"I was trying so hard to hold back in my tears but I had to do this. "Okay, I'll pack everything up, if you really wanna do this we have an hour before they get back from their hunt" She sighed, I nodded my head and she left the bathroom. I glanced at the pregnancy test on the counter, my heart pounding faster than before No matter what it says..we need to leave I made my way to the counter reaching out my shaking hands to grab it, please be negative..don't make this harder than it needs to be. I took a deep breath and finally turned it over, my heart broke into pieces two pink lines bringing me to my knees. "This can't be happening"I whispered to myself.
If leaving him wouldn't make him hate me, leaving with his unborn child not knowing was. I knew he would never forgive me and this probably makes me a horrible person but I need to do this. Nobody would understand I wiped my tears and shoved the test in my pocket walking out the bathroom door, I walked to Cyrus's room and grabbed my personal items along with the potions, I was ready to walk out but my heart couldn't let me leave without saying goodbye. I walked to the desk pulled out a paper and pen writing my farewell.