Tainted

Eight/Truth(Artemis)

🎵Chapter Song~Close by Nick Jonas ft Tove Lo(Cover by Sonna Rele)

I finally had the courage to slap him as I caught him off guard. I knew when I raised my hand it was gonna be a mistake but I was pissed off, it was really hard to control my anger and my wolf instincts didn't make it any easier.
Cyrus leaned his head back and rocked it side to side, that's when he grabbed my waist turned me around and slammed my back against the wall his hand pinned my wrists to the wall all I could see was anger in his eyes and god did it terrify me.
"You are gonna regret doing that Princess"
So now he calls me a different name it took me slapping him to stop calling me pup, I was really trying to stay calm but he didn't make it any easier.
"What don't have anything else to say now"
I rolled my eyes and turned away from him I needed anything to look at besides him.
"Did I tell you to look away"
Come on Artemis stay calm
"Am fucken talking to you"
I bit my lip holding in my next words but if I was being honest I was to much of a smart mouth to not hold back"What Mr.Alpha"
"Do you think this is a game"
"No I don't, I think your just scared to actually find your mate or maybe you realized you don't have one since your-"
"Finish that sentence, I dare you"
He locked his eyes on me yes I was afraid but at the same time I just realized how much green was in his ice blue eyes, god he changed so much since I last saw him.
"Are you done"I asked
"Are you done acting like a fucken child"
"I don't know are you done acting like such an ass"
I managed to break from his pin and folded my arms.
"You have been treating me so different in front of your mom but when we're alone you treat me like shit"I glared.
"It's called acting and besides your the one that switches up on me, so I stopped trying to be so nice so yes I treat you differently now, than I act in front of people to make them not question about you being my Luna"
"What's the point Cyrus, am not and don't you say most alphas treat their Luna like this when most of them don't"
"If I were do treat you like this right now my mother would kill me"
I took a deep breath"Go make this right and go find your real Luna" I said walking back to the bed and sitting down, I couldn't look at him, I didn't hate him anymore like I used to but what happens when we go through with his marriage and people find out or when his real Luna comes and he has to reject her.
"How about you don't tell me what to do"
I knew I made him like this but still why did he have to be so mean
I shook my head and looked at the bed"Being rejected isn't funny Cyrus" I knew the minute I said it, it was gonna change everything but I was to tired of caring he needed to know and I needed to tell someone.
The whole room shifted and the tension between us disappeared when he walked up to me, he kneeled down and cupped my chin to look at him.
"What do you mean"his expression mixed with concern and seriousness
I haven't told anyone this story nobody knew except for my father and look how that turned out but how do you tell someone without being judged and laughed at for being an embarrassment and a joke of a wolf.
"Artemis" he sat up and sat next to me, I looked at him
"Being rejected Cyrus, it's painful more painful then your first shift, a bond like a mate being ripped away from you is one of the most extremely excruciating experience you can ever feel "
"You were rejected"
"Embarrassing right"I looked down not realizing how much I let myself go as a tear rolled down and hit my hand.
"Is that why you almost went rogue, I heard most rejected mates turn rouge"
"I wanted to I did that's how much I suffered that I was willing to leave Apollo and Nyla but then overtime I was numbed to the pain it become bearable and well now we're here"
"So your mate, do I know him"
"He's no longer my mate Cyrus"
"How is that possible, yes I get he rejected you but the myth is that you still feel him and the bond even after"
"That's what I thought but a few weeks ago I stopped feeling anything about him"
"Do I know him"
"No"
"Good" he looked at the floor Good
"Good, why what were you gonna do if I told you who he was"
"I would probably kill him"
"Why" I didn't wanna admit to myself why I cared what he thought but I did and my heart was aching to know how he felt.
"Because only a fucken stupid ass wolf would reject his mate and risk not having his bloodline continued"
"Honestly I stopped caring, I mean it's been done"
"Am sorry"
"You don't have anything to apologize for"
"I know but still no one should ever be rejected" he smiled "not even you Artie" Artie I haven't heard that name since that night.
"Well thanks" I nudged his shoulder back a little
"Seriously though Cy go look for her"
"Honestly your probably right, I most likely don't have one"
"Yeah right I highly doubt that"
"Why, aren't I such a whatever you were gonna call me"
I let out a soft chuckle and for what felt like a while we just looked at each other I don't know if it was me but there was something there..wasn't there
"I don't wanna waste my time with finding someone who isn't out there, I know I don't have one but am giving you an out" An out
"What"
"Am not gonna force you to marry me, maybe you'll get a second mate am not a guy who believes in miracles but you are and I don't want to ruin that for you, so you can leave and forget this ever happened" he sat up and looked at me.
"I'll make sure you don't become a rouge, you can be free from this mess and I-" he took a deep breath"Can marry someone who will be willing or I can let Alec continue the St James bloodline and step down from Alpha" My heart ached and my stomach dropped, knowing him marring someone else killed me and him stepping down after everything that has happened broke me more
You don't think I know that I was a horrible mother who let her thirteen year old son to fend for himself and take care of his little brother