Broken Trust

Chapter 14

I shut the door behind me cautious for what might happen next. "What did you want to speak with me about?" I crossed my arms over my chest as a way of guarding myself away from him.

"Well, I would like to come to terms with our deal and see if you are still on board? Right? Yep. I know you are. I love you, you love me. That's the way it's supposed to be." He shrugged as he grins.

I squinted my eyes as I looked at him stunned. "I- uh..." I placed two fingers on my lips looking past John into the distance. He's really got me deep under water. I swear I told myself to stay at shore.

"Hmm." Yep, I am just making a complete fool of myself at this point. I face palm my face (not dramatically of course, always awkwardly).

"Cat got your tongue?" He smirked me down, the look in his eyes; so captivating, and yet knowingly so dangerous.

"Well, how do you know everything that you just said was true?" I gave him a curious sense of expression.

"Because I know. I can see it in your eyes Lillian." He rubbed his thumb oh so delicately on my right cheek. I closed my eyes reeling in his touch that is in which made me tingly everywhere.

"You. Can see in my eyes that I am in love with you?" I questioned; he looked off into abyss thinking of an answer when he finally glanced into my eyes.

"Not only that but your body language as well. I noticed in the room that you kept your distance from me to not make me make you feel certain things. And now, I can tell you like being close to me, you seem relaxed. And oh yeah, explain last night to me." He seemed really confident in his answer, and I didn't even deny it.

I mean I do feel things whenever I am in his presence like this nervous adrenaline that is forever addicting. And although it makes me feel like I might shit my pants, I still feel drawn to it.

"So, wait." I paused putting my hands up, "how many days has it been since that deal?" I asked him to wait for an answer.

"3." He stated so vaguely as if he seemed annoyed for some reason.

"Wow. Only 3 days." I sighed, "A lot could happen in the next 7 days." I remarked giving strong eye contact.

"Yep." He eyed me up and down as silence filled the hallway. I weirdly got this strange feeling inside of me if he will ever get bored of me in the next 7 days and just move on. Really if I will be honest, this whole deal thing is a big stupid and dramatic, yet still I am bored with life and need some excitement at least.

I know that's a dumb reason, but it's the only reason I can think of. "I should probably get back to writing a song with Alex." I told him as I point at the door.

He nods slowly, "Come to my room when you're at all taking a break." He demanded, for some reason all of a sudden, he seemed annoyed. I don't know if I did something, but his whole demeanor changed within seconds.

I nodded at him, and I attempted to say something, but he just walked away. I sighed and walked back into my room.

"What did he want to talk to you about?" Is the first thing I hear when I shut the door behind me and hit the back of my head against it as I close my eyes.

I pushed myself off the door and rolled my eyes in an attempt to try and think of an answer.

"Nothing important and nothing that concerns you." I gave him a fake smile as I open my covers to climb into.

"Just- let's just get comfortable and get working." I tell him. He just nodded knowing to not to get to my agitated side.

***

It's been a couple of hours since we have been working on this song. At this point I am rubbing my eyes and massaging my temples. I hear Alex dramatically fall of bed. No. But like literally though.

I started laughing so hard I bring my head back and forth and keep on hitting my thigh as I'm sitting crisscross applesauce on the bed.

I heard Alex mutter a swear word that makes me laugh even more. "Not funny." He embarrassingly said and storms off to his side of the room and grabs a drink.

I fall onto my back where my head hits my pillow perfectly. I grin as if I feel so happy for the first time in a while.

I mean I have a good agent for my singing career who is supposedly in love with me and who I have a deep desire for, I have Alex who makes me smile every day. I have been feeling more confident than ever with my singing voice. There is just one thing that kinda makes my happiness ify. Which is John.

I love his presence, the way he makes me feel. However, I get this other feeling that doesn't sit right with me.

I continue to not let it bother me and shut off my lamp and pass out.