Broken Trust

Chapter 13

It has been a day since my last encounter with John. I finally found the courage to dart down the hallways of the hotel in just a blanket in time to get to my hotel room. Of course, I knew there were cameras, but heck if I cared.

I have been lying in bed all day, still processing all of the emotions I felt yesterday. Never in a lifetime I have felt that intimate with someone, or even had that much of a make-out sesh. He made me feel things I have never felt before and it was exciting, I hope and not hope to feel that again.

"Okay so I don't know if you have noticed but all of our songs are too romancy and depressing, we need something upbeat." Alex stated while sitting on his bed on his side of the room.

I nodded with his suggestion, "I agree, but what could it be about?" I have always enjoyed writing songs with Alex, because of us understanding each other so well.

This goes on for a while, us communicating with certain phrases, words, rhythm, harmony, et cetera. When we eventually think of a song title, which is Stupid Romance, yes, I know it's similar to Stupid Love, but it wouldn't be emphasizing anything that is explained in Stupid Love it would be like how romance is stupid and pointless.

Me and Alex agreed on it and go along with it, when of course I heard my phone ringing. I go to grab it from my nightstand and see that it was my Mom. I rolled my eyes and sighed. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom, I do, but she can be a bit much. Not like those rich moms though who are all controlling, she is just very dramatic about everything.

"Hey honey." I heard her say on the other line. "Hey" I replied lowly. "I miss you. I wish I could see you." I cringed but smile, "Yes, I do too, but you need to know I am doing what I love." I reassured her.

"I just feel so lonely here in Michigan. All I have are my work friends." She said with a sad tone. "You are and will be fine Mom." I simply told her.

"I don't think so, first your sister leaves me, your brother leaves me, and then finally your dad leaves me, then you. God, honey I don't know what to do with myself anymore." I blinked a couple times glancing at Alex sitting across from me then look down.

I truly felt bad, but she does know I have wanted to travel the world and do what I love, which is singing. She at first wouldn't let me leave by myself when originally, I did want to, I have always been an independent person. She said I could only go if I weren't by myself, so Alex was the first person to ask and thankfully he agreed.

I mean I knew somehow deep down he would say yes, we are too inseparable to separate anyways. Although I was also surprised because I knew he had plans of his own, to go to this music academy and become a pianist.

It did take him a while to make a final decision because I mean, it's an Academy, and I was mad at him for wanting to come with me.

"It's okay Mom, soon I will come and visit you" I saw sympathy in Alex's eyes when I look at him.

"That's still not enough, and yes I know you will come and visit me as much as possible and yes I know we can talk on the phone or do all of that FaceTime crap, still, it's not the same as seeing you in person." She explained.

I sighed, "Mom I know I'm sorry."

"Anyways, I don't want to have that conversation anymore, where are you now?" She immediately said, I stayed silent for a couple seconds then smiled, "I'm in New York! Finally." I replied.

"So, you really do love it? I know you have always talked about New York when you were younger." She reminded me, my smile grew wider as I heard a knock on the door. I nodded at Alex to get it because I wanted to keep talking to my Mom.

"Yes, it's even more amazing than I've imagined, I mean of course it has its cons, I still love it though." I said while smiling and see John setting his eyes on me. My lip's parted. I now realized maybe I should just end this call. His presence is made me feel paralyzed. I inhaled a sharp breath.

"Mom I'm really sorry, but something has come up, call me later yeah?" I explained to her. "Okay, I love you" she replied with a sad tone, "Love you too" I then hung up the phone.

I get up from my side of the bed and pat both of my hands on my thighs and gaze at John who is glancing between me and Alex.

"So I have news." He paused, "First, you guys are going to have to change hotels because your guys' reservation is coming to an end soon, but it's okay because I already booked you guys new rooms in a new hotel. Second, I as well booked a gig for you guys to perform at this night club." He paused once again, "So maybe a slow song, kinda hot," he makes hand gestures, "You know, a good sexy beat."

I placed my palm on my forehead, I heard Alex chuckle across the room, we both looked at each knowing exactly what we're thinking.

We were just working on an upbeat song. How great. I guess it's fine though so that we can sing it somewhere else. I guess now we'll just have to work on a different song now.

"Okay sounds good. Thank you so much!" I beamed at John staying where I am. I needed to keep my distance from him, his presence was too intimidating.

"Yeah, thanks John, that means a lot." Alex sarcastically said.

I noticed John noticing me that I haven't walked any closer to him, and he makes this weird expression. "Yeah, it's no problem at all, I enjoy my job" he shrugged smiling a little.

John sighed, "Well I will leave you guys to it." He nods at both of us and heads for the door.

I noticed him hesitate to turn the doorknob, "Lillian, could I speak with you out in the hall please?" His head is down low, and his voice was very firm.

I felt nerves rising through my body, I'm not exactly sure what he had to say to me, but I suddenly felt my hands tremble like crazy.

Whatever he had to say, I will go with the flow like I always do, and just hide my emotions like I always do.