Broken Trust

Chapter 10

John and I finally went our separate ways, and I gave up on shopping. I went back to the hotel to check up on Alex, to see what he was doing.

I went to unlock our hotel room door, when I opened it, I saw him sitting at the table. Not alone.

I saw John sitting with him, so when I gained their attention, they both had their eyes on me.

"What is going on?" I set my things down as I walked towards them.

"Alex here says you guys want me as your agent." John stated confidently.

I knit my eyebrows together in confusion, "I never said that. Alex how come- what??" 

"Alex, I never said I wanted him as our agent." I remarked towards Alex.

"No, but I did." Alex replied, what was his deal?

"There are two people in this team, not just you!" I exclaimed. "Yes, I know, but I really think it would be a good choice to sign him off." Alex calmly replied.

"Well, I disagree." I crossed my arms.

"John already told me he could give us deals on having us sing at LA, Paris, and more." Alex told me.

Honestly, personally I would like John as our personal Agent/Manager I don't even know, but I just don't want our relationship to get in the way.

Who knows, maybe John was been lying to my face this whole entire time about his feelings. Maybe he really has just been using me, to make me accept this deal, to get that money.

I stood there, and I couldn't seem to get words out of my mouth, because my mind was already speaking with overthinking thoughts that I can't seem to gather.

"Lillian?" I heard someone say my name, though I couldn't tell who said it. No, this cannot happen, not here, not right now.

I am a very sensitive person when it comes to my emotions and anxiety, the main thing that's worse about it, is that I can't seem to control it.

It's all of a sudden hard to breathe, I try not to show that I am struggling, so I go to sit on the end of the bed with my head down low.

"Lillian." I heard my name once again, I should probably answer, so that they don't think there is something wrong with me.

"Yeah?" I answered.

"So? What do you think we should do; he is sitting here waiting." I barely heard what whoever said. I am just trying to breathe over here.

"Uhm." I barely get a word out, because now I am just seeing stars. I am not exactly sure what is happening to me right now, though I really don't like it.

I finally feel a hand on my shoulder. "Lillian? Are you okay?" Now I know that was Alex.

"Yes." I replied quickly, almost out of breath.

"Could you repeat what you said?" I added, squinting my eyes shut while looking down.

"What do you think we should do?" He repeated. I slowly started to get myself together, trying to breathe in and out slowly yet quietly.

I nodded my head before I said, "Lets hire him." I finally looked up and saw John sitting at the table, keeping his eyes on me.

"Great, its good doing business with you two." John stated while getting up from the chair, walking his way towards the door.

"Yeah, thank you for the offer." I heard Alex tell him. I continue to look down at the floor, not totally agreeing with this decision, but maybe it is for the best.