Fading Love

Fading Love 6

Everything happened in just a blink of an eye. It's been nine months since Margarett completely disappeared from my life, and it's also been nine months since my life stopped. Cigarettes became my friends. I've been drowning myself in alcohol, and I dropped out of school. My mind became my greatest enemy. It's like I was just waiting for my body to give up.

Why do people always leave me hanging? I deserve at least a goodbye.

I was just staring out my window when my mom appeared from behind.

"You know you can always talk to me, right?"

My mother said this to me while gently squeezing my shoulders. She kneeled in front of me, holding my hands on my knees.

"I miss you so much, son."

Fuck. My mom broke down in tears while hugging me.

For the first time in nine months, I felt something. Her sobs pierced through my heart.

"I'm so sorry, mom."

I held her so tight, and her touch ripped down the walls in my heart, which somehow went frozen for a time now.

"I still love her so much, mom."

And right now, I am already bawling.

"I know you do, but life didn't end right when she left you, and I know you may feel it does, but there's still something out there beyond your pain."

My mom continued to hug me, and I didn't dare let go of her.

"I can barely even recognize you, so please, please, come back to me."

My mom's voice is already breaking.

I don't know how long we've been in that situation, but when I woke up, I stared at myself in the mirror, and I couldn't really recognize the person I was staring at.

My beard grew, and my hair is now shoulder-length. It's like I'm ten years older than my age.

I opened our shower, and I sat in the bathroom, just staring into nothingness. The feel of the cold water touching my skin felt so strange. I shaved my beard and did my own hair. At least now I'm looking more decent than I was earlier. I put on some clean clothes and headed towards the door. I took a deep breath before turning the knob and stepping out of my room.

Shock was written in my parents' faces when they saw me, but my father immediately looked away as if he were guilty of something.

"I'm going to go driving, mom. I'll be back later. I just need some fresh air and a change of scenery."

I coldly said this before heading out the door.

I ran my fingers on my steering wheel.

"Long time, no see, baby."

I said to my car.

I don't really know where to go, so I just drove and drove until I'd reached the flower shop where Margarett used to work. This is the place where I first heard her voice. For some reason, my heart still hopes to see her.