It's Not Finished Yet

Chapter 39

"Aren't we all waiting to be read by someone, praying that they'll tell us that we made sense?"

- Rudy Francisco.

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I close my door to change into the night suit. It has been two days since I met him, but there hasn't been a second when the flashbacks don't engulf me, taking me back into his arms. Specially the way my body is behaving now.

Aftermath of meeting him.

Even though I'm still virgin, but I'm kinda sore because of all those attempts we had. My lower lip is still swollen too.

And that hickey he gave me....

I remove my top and turns towards the mirror, touching the art he made on my left boobie. It's on the upper side, so it's visible through the bra. I ran my hand slowly towards my neck, delicately touching every spot he kissed while closing my eyes.

His brown eyes flashed infront of me, looking at me with softness.

I open my eyes and shake my head with a hint of smile, getting back to wearing my night suit.

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8th February 2022
3:12 PM

Dear diary,
It's been a year since we entered into each other's life. Just how fast the time flies. I still remember how we started talking. It had been two days of continuous talk on Insta, and I was enjoying making him laugh.

"God, you're so funny," he said followed by another dialogue. I don't remember it exactly but it was something like "you feel so familiar, like we have been friends since forever."

Uff.
Those precious days.
If someone had told me I would be dating this guy on whom I was crushing so hard? I wouldn't have believed it. But here we are.

Well back to present, it's been a week since we met and we haven't talked. More like he hadn't responded to any SMS of mine.
Except once.
I wonder what he is up to?
Where is he?
Has he seen my messages yet?

Last night I saw a post on Instagram saying 'what does it mean when a guy ghosts you after the first meeting', and it was full of negative shit. I brushed it off and slept.

But now I'm wondering what if it's true? What if he is really ghosting me?
But then again, maybe he is genuinely stuck somewhere in a problem. I have no proof to give any conclusion yet.

C'mon Hayat you know him.

I think I should stop taking Instagram as my life guide. Also, maybe that post was meant for those couples who have just met. Because on a normal scale of life, people go on first date right after knowing for a week or month. And then if they don't wanna continue that thing, they ghost the other person. Most importantly, they lack emotional connection.

Whereas here, we weren't just a week old acquaintances. We took months or can say a year to build up an emotional connection and then decided to meet.

So yes, not one conclusion is suitable for all situations. First we gotta see the background story. Hence, every situation needs different conclusion according to the facts.

Anyways.

I miss you Janab
Oh, I miss you so much.
I hope you are safe wherever you are. And I hope you reach out to me soon.