It's Not Finished Yet

Chapter 21

"Just ask anything you want from me," he murmured.

I closed my eyes.
I feel stupid for even thinking about it. Because I just wish...
I just wish I can ask him what I want.

That I want him to be mine.

"Kya hua? Badi gum-sum si ho," he mumbled again when received silence from me. (What happened? You seem so quiet.)

"No. It's nothing like that."

"Then?"

"What were you asking in text by the way?" I tried to change the topic, but little did I knew it's the same track.

Because I forgot what did he asked in the text!

"What?"

"You asked something."

"I don't remember it. Tell me."

"I don't remember either. All I remember is you said 'answer honestly'."

"Okay. Let me re-read it."

I shivered as the chilly wind passed by, "It's windy tonight."

"Yeah, I'm in-between chilly winds too," he murmured surprising me, as I thought he wouldn't be listening to my muttering. "Yeah I was asking that, what does your heart wants?"

"Achha," I went out of words.

"Hmm."

"Hmm. Now what should I say?" I muttered.

"Whatever you want. Just like I told you clearly. How more specific can I be?" His voice deepens.

"Yeah I know." I looked down in my lap.

"So, you have given permission for everything then?" He murmured.

"Wait what? I never said that." My face jolted right up by his question.

"Then? How will I get that?"

"I won't give in just like that," I scoffed.

"Then how?" His voice softens.

"You know the answer." I rolled my eyes.

"You tell me."

"There's a limit... to this physical stuff too, you know?" I stutter.
His questions were making me speechless.

"What limit?"

"Why are you acting so unaware like you don't know anything?" I adjusted my earphones.

"Nope, maybe our thoughts are different. Dont take it negatively."

"Achha."

"Yeah. So?"

I kept silent, busy in processing words.

"Speak. I'm freezing here," his voice broke my thoughts.

"Im freezing too." I took a moment to collect words and frame them into one sentence. "I have only given permission for a kiss."

"Okay and?"

"That's it."

"Okay. So... The rest depends on the flow right?" he chuckled.

"Nooo," I laughed sitting up straight.

"They are your words."

"But I meant....on just kiss." I whispered the last word.
It was my first time talking about intimacy with a guy so openly. It's not like I haven't had dirty talks before, but here, we were actually discussing it to make it happen.