It's Not Finished Yet

Chapter 45

Is it normal?
If I get lost in someone's eyes?
If I crave someone's lips?
If my hand perfectly fits in someone's?
If I melt by someone's voice?

Is it normal?
If I find peace in someone's arms?
If I can wait for someone tirelessly?
If I can admire someone all day?
And if I want that someone right now?

~   Hayat.
       31st March 2022.

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Yes, upgrading your level of language is difficult. But you know what's more difficult?

Downgrading your level to match the standard given. 

We, as humans, usually strive for growth and improvement to upgrade our skills by continuous practice. Our focus is on getting better and our brain flows freely in giving new ideas.
But when you need to control your brain and keep reminding yourself to stay in the limited boundary, that's where it starts getting frustrating.

And that's what was happening with me.

I, Hayat Khan, a university literature student, who loves languages and is currently improving her English, was given a task to write down a video script according to a 5th Grade student level.

Which means, I have to downgrade my level of skills from University to Junior school.
Basic and simple English.
With short and easy sentences.

And that was IRRITATING.

I understand that the target is to cover every English speaker possible for maximum views, but that doesn't erase the fact that it was messing with my vocabulary.

For example I normally write a sentence like, 'Sam got hurt in his knee because he fell down from his cycle while riding down the road.'

But now I have to write like, 'Sam hurt his knee. He was riding a cycle. He fell down.'

And ughhh it gets irritating because that's my habit to write long sentence with good flow. I mean that's how senior level students write, right? It just comes out naturally. But now I have to remind myself again and again to stay in 5th Grade whenever I lose track.

Add up the irritating boss I was dealing with. He doesn't send me new topics on time and then complains if I get late in completing the goal.
Like bruh!
How will I do it when you are the lazy boss, a huge obstacle in my work. And also the unnecessary plagiarism that pops up even on self made lines. I hate this part the most in content writing work.

God!
It is hell of a ride....

In the midst of all the irritating parts, the only good thing is, I have acquired a new skill. I can now switch my level of language according to the audience, with less difficulty.

So not a bad deal after all?

I laid back on the cushions in sigh, feeling the back pain increasing. Closing my eyes, I rested my arm over my eyes. The rushing thoughts about cutting down the lines in a simpler manner with a grammar pattern was engulfing my mind and I tried to shush them down.

I want peace.
Just 2 minutes of peace.
Silent mind.
I'm so fedup.

How do I make my mind calm?

My mouth stretched opened in yawn, making me cover it lazily.
Ah I'm so tired.
And sleepy.

I snuggled in between the pillows, contemplating the daily goals I haven't achieved yet. My phone vibrated, indicating a new message and I lazily picked it up, opening the screen. It was Jaylene, replying to my previous text. My fingers traveled towards the SMS messaging app and clicked on his contact.