just something to write about because i have no idea what else to.
but, anyways. as always my mind usual wanders and i end of thinking about things i shouldn't or things i know make me sad. i basically made this thing just to vent. i dont know.
if you've ever heard a trophy father's trophy son by sleeping with sirens it describes what im thinking about. it's a really good song too, you should listen to it sometime. but anyways. heres the lyrics...
"A Trophy Father's Trophy Son"
Father, father, tell me where have you been?
It's been hell not having you here
I've been missing you so bad
And you don't seem to care
When I go to sleep at night, you're not there
When I go to sleep at night, do you care?
Do you even miss us?
Your bottle's your mistress
I need to know, I need to know
Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?
I will try to understand
Father, father, tell me where are you now?
It's been hell not having you
Last thing I heard, you were fed up, you're skipping town
With no note telling where
When I go to sleep at night, you're not there
When I go to sleep at night, do you care?
I need to know, I need to know
Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?
Why are you running away?
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?
Why are you running away?
Tell me please, tell me please, I need to know
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Spent seven years wishing that you'd drop the line
But I carry the thought along with you in my mind
But is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Family!
Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?
Why are you running away?
I don't understand this, is this how it ends?
Why are you running away?
Tell me please, tell me please, I need to know
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
basically, all im thinking about is how my dad left me a little while after i was born. i dont understand why people do that. if you have a kid, then learn to take care of them. don't just leave them wondering what they did wrong in order for you to leave them. making the child feel unwanted and depressed. if you aren't ready to have a kid then, damn. dont have a kid. i mean, it hurts me not knowing the reason you ran away and left me. its freaking just, ugh. anyways bye. -siah.
