I Kind Of Like Him

Your Name

"May I ask, what is your name?" Zhehan asked.

Startled, Gong Jun took a moment of silence due tom nervousness. even though he trusted the man, he still didn't know his identity. And the lingering feeling inside him, he still didn't understand what it was.

He didn't know what on earth it is, but it's the one giving him fear he didn't know why he couldn't just state his name. That certain force was pulling him off. A fear of the guy's reaction once he knew. A fear that the man will fear him if he knew. Thankfully thanks to this haunted mansion law of interaction Zhehan even standing infront of him will not see him wearing such uncertain expression, or else he would have known his nervousness.

Under such circumstances, Gong Jun chose to play it safe. He smiled and then answered the guy.

"Wen... Wen Ke Xing,"

Zhehan sighed and slightly smiled. Silence was kept inside of him. On their last meeting, he knew he had given a facade name to the guy. All because he still didn't know and didn't trust the guy well. But now that the guy holds so much place in his heart, he wants the guy to truly know him. His surname holds a big title in the outside world; no one actually residing on the earth doesn't know that name. Even those who live under a rock would know him. He knows that if mentioned, the guy would easily recognize him. Giving his real name is giving his full trust.

As he pondered for a moment, if he were to tell the guy, would the guy still love him? Amidst the doubt, a heart filled with boundless trust beats his doubts. He breathes deeply and gathers all his courage to speak.

"Actually... The truth is... My name isn't..." He started but was cut off when suddenly all the curtains in the room lifted, revealing something they didn't knew....

"W-what's happening?" Gong Jun said, out of nervousness. Eyes are still closed

The place was so silent earlier, yet it suddenly became chaotic. It's all right and natural; however, it's so much different than those earlier nights.

Zhehan and Gong Jun's eyes burst wide open, causing them to vanish in each other's presence. They found themselves once again alone on the floor while the surge of such an eerie night rose like a wave of darkness.

"What's happening? It wasn't this vicious before. Have you encountered something like this in the past three months?" Gong Jun inquired nervously.

Zhehan shook his head. "It's the first time it happened. Don't panic. I'm here. I'm still here," he gently said, comforting Gong Jun.

Hence, Gong Jun was taken over by his fear and could no longer hear Zhehan's voice, Zhehan felt it. He was walking back and forth in the room, thinking about the best way he could deliver his words to the guy.

He then contemplates for a moment until an idea comes to his mind. He immediately speaks and connects himself with Gong Jun.

"Ke Xing, listen... Close your eyes again. I'll be there for you," he immediately commanded.

Gong Jun immediately followed his instructions. After a moment, he spoke.

"I'm here now," Zhehan stated, inquired.

Not a minute passed, Gong Jun pulled him into a tight embrace. Zhehan smiled and hugged him back, resting his head on Gong Jun's chest.

Hearing the other guy's heartbeat, Zhehan was bewildered. At first, it was fast and trembling; he must have been too scared. And now, the heartbeat was even faster... Is the other person more afraid of him than of the ghost? But he was the one being pulled, wasn't he?

He was supposed to be the one getting startled. Unless...

Zhehan smiled. Those heartbeats, really beating fast. It's almost the same as his. He knows what it's about. His reason behind it isn't fear, and now he wonders about the reason for the other man's heartbeat. Is it because of nervousness?

He wonders for a moment. He wishes that the guy's heartbeat isn't bound by the expanse of mentality of this secluded haunted house. He wants it to be... because of him.

He still doesn't know how to answer himself. He knows he loves him, but how? When did the unfamiliar feelings start? Back to where he found the guy shivering in fear? Or... the earlier moment back then?...

The moment he blindfolded the guy's eyes at their first meeting, he knew hope arrived in his life. That he was finally seen a companion who would give him hope to survive... Back then, all he thought about was companionship and survival. He didn't expect that what arrived there wasn't just hope... but also warmth.

He sought the guy's light even without seeing him; he thought that would be it. But soon after, instead of light, he sought the man's presence. He was satisfied by the sunrays until he desired the sun itself. He wanted to come near it. He knows it's impossible.

He gave it up, but soon after, he found out. Their relationship, he thought, was just like the sun and nature, but it was not that at all. Soon after, he realized that what the guy offered him wasn't the light of sunrays but a flower of spring.

With the feelings he gets because of the guy, he is grateful. It's because of him he knows that the feeling of warmth exists in his heart. The feeling of love. Due to that gratitude, he wants to repay the guy. Even if the guy doesn't know it and is probably oblivious. He can't live without him.

His father says there are most feelings that exist when you encounter a stranger in your life. Hence, everyone hopes that with every encounter, they will only find one thing.

Solace...

He used to deny it, but now he thinks he's right. He found it, and there is no way he can let it go. No matter what the guy's feelings might be towards him.

He'll be with him no matter what it is...

"Ke Xing, keep your eyes closed and just listen to me," Zhehan whispered.

After a moment, Zhehan sings a song, the same lullaby he sang that night.

Gong Jun gets stunned, listening to a sweet and warm lullaby coming from Zhehan's gentle voice.

"Y-your..." he spoke but was cut off by a sudden movement of the other guy.

In just a moment, just a blink of an eye, he found himself in the arms of the other guy, their lips meeting, and currently embracing each other's warmth.

With just a flick of a finger, he felt his heart melting inside. And the fear, uncertainties, and the questions that lingered in his mind finally found an answer.

He is in love.