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-Voices.

I stayed up that whole night, when I woke up the next morning the eerie feeling was basically sitting on my chest.

I had gotten a few hours of sleep but it felt like I was loosing my mind, I finally dragged myself out of bed and let blue out of his cage.

I walked into the bathroom that was connected to my room, I washed my face after getting out the shower.

I walked into my room, putting on some black jeans and a white tanktop that was cropped and low cut.

I put blues collar on, before walking downstairs and letting him out in the backyard.

I sat on the back porch as he ran around, I could hear the footsteps of someone walking up the alley of my driveway.. it'd basically the spot between your fence and your porch.

I ignored it, until I looked up and Seen Scrim walking up my porch with his hands in his pockets

"What the fuck" I said softly.

I stood up and walked over to him and his hand went to the back of my neck kissing me deeply.

"Where the fuck have you been?" I asked after pulling back from the kiss after kissing him back.

"I'm sorry Angel" he told me leaning his forehead against mine, "why did you leave me?" I asked softly sighing, I was finally fucking safe again.

"I'm sorry princess, I am.." he told me and I shuddered softly, I wanted to cry. I wanted to beat his fucking ass as well..

"I needed you" I said feeling my eyes swell up with tears, "no you didn't baby.. look at you, you did this all by yourself" he said to me softly, "Where's Ari...?" I asked

"He's at home" he told me, "does he know your here..?" I asked and Scrim nodded.

"Please don't leave me again.. please" I said softly, "I don't baby.. I won't" he said hugging me, I laid my head in his chest sobbing.

He held me until we were interrupted by Blue jumping up on his heels, making him chuckle.

I sighed while wiping my eyes pulling out of his hug, I picked blue up "I have to go angel" he told me, "no I just got you back.." I said softly.

"Baby doll, I'm gonna be here for you. Okay? Come find me at our old spot" he told me and I nodded.

He kissed my lips before walking off my back porch, I didn't care to stay there any longer I walked back inside my house locking the door before walking to my studio in my house.

I walked in there and sighed staring at my album that was supposed to come out next week

Northside lovin

I stared at it before uploading it to my Spotify and SoundCloud, I sighed rubbing my face.

I heard a knock at my front door, and I got up and opened it and it was Scrim.

Still no Ruby

I sighed, "Princess" he said softly, I looked up at him and he kissed me softly. "I love you" he told me, "I love you too" I said, "Scrim.. does he hate me..?" I asked softly.

"No baby he doesn't hate you.. he was hurt for a while but he misses you Bae..." he told me rubbing the side of my face comfortably.

I leaned into his touch, "I can't lose you" I said looking up at him..

"Baby I'm not leaving" he told me, "but it feels like you are.." I told him, "Do you want me to stay..?" He asked.

"Yes and no.." I said softly, he kissed my forehead. "I'm gonna go shorty, I'll be back. Go see him" he told me and i nodded watching as he walked off my porch and to his car.

I sighed, closing the door and going and sitting on the couch. Blue jumped up on the couch with me, laying his head in my lap.

I turned on the tv, petting blue before kissing his head and turning on some show.

I sighed, me and blue sat on that couch for a couple hours until I got up, I walked to my room putting blue in his cage because I didn't want him to run around the cage.

"I'll be back baby" I said to blue before grabbing my keys and getting in my car,i knew where Ruby's place was.. i mean when u miss someone you kind of get all stalkerish.

I pulled into his driveway, he was sitting on his porch. I got out of my car and leaned on it, he stared at me. I stared back at him there was nothing to say.

He sighed, getting up off his porch and walked to me. Placing his hand on the side of my face kissing me, I relaxed. I had my boys back. For now.

I relaxed kissing him back, he deepened the kiss pulling me close to him almost like he didn't want me to let go.

After a minute he pulled back, looking at me before hugging me. I laid my head on his chest, holding onto him.

"I'm so sorry" he said to me, "No baby I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I hurt you" I said and he sighed, "I forgive you princess" he said to me

"No, you shouldn't I hurt you and you didn't deserve what I put you thru.." I said softly looking up at him.

"Look at your freaking hair" I said softly, "Angel.." he said softly, "yes baby" I said, and he sighed like he relaxed. "I missed you" he said softly looking me in my eyes.

"I know.. why did you leave..?" I asked, "I can't tell you ma.. but it was for a good reason I promise I'm sorry I hurt you" he told me.

"I know.. I'm sorry too but Im okay now.. I'm clean and I'm sober" I told him and he smiled, "I'm so proud of you" he said to me and I laid my head on his chest.

"Don't leave me again.." i said softly.

"I won't ma, I won't" he told me and I nodded.