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- I miss you

I woke up late that afternoon to Scott downstairs,  I could hear a few other people down there with him. It sounded like Ruby and someone else.

I sighed, getting up and going downstairs. It was almost around the anniversary of Gus. And it fucking hurt, I walked over to my bag that Scott got out the car.

I put on a bra and black tanktop and panties, duh. And some  gray sweatpants tying my hair up and walking downstairs.

I walked into the living room rubbing my eyes, It was Ruby, Scrim and Slim and sounded like Kevin was in the kitchen with nick. Fucking big backs.

I thought to myself, I sat down on the far end of the couch, crossing my arms over my stomach.

I felt Ruby look over at me, but I didn't look up at him. The boys were sitting on the couch, watching some weird ass movie. I was trying to understand it but couldn't, “what the fuck are y'all watching” I asked.

“Some shit Ruby picked out” Slim told me, “oh so you cuss now?” I ask and everyone chuckled. “Who's running your kitchen up” I asked Scrim, “You already know who” he told me and I chuckled.

“So we just got some of the gang in town orrrr..?”i asked, “Nah, Germ and Rami and them are somewhere in town” Ruby told me. I nodded, I laid my head on my knees as I watched the movie the boys were watching.

“Y'all are so bizarre” I said softly, “Says you” Kevin said walking out the kitchen holding a bag of chips and handing them to me.

“Thanks Kev” I said and he nodded sitting down next to me, I sighed tapping my leg slightly.

Kev took my hand, realizing I was tapping out of anxiety. I looked at his hand, he clearly wasn't focused on it.

I leaned back on the couch, stretching my legs out which pushed Kev off the couch.

“Your such a bitchh” I told him, watching him sit up and just stare at me. Making everyone chuckle, “shush lil girl” he told me.

“I'm older than you” I said, and he rolled his eyes sitting on the floor In Front of Ruby's legs.

I chuckled, smiling. It was nice, right now. Life wasn't hurting anymore. It was calm, I felt normal for the first time in forever.

“Rami and Germ said they gon be here soon” Scrim said, Ruby nodded and so did Kevin.

I laid my head on Ruby, he laid my head on his lap slightly. His hand resting on my hip, Scott got up and turned the lights out.

The movie was starting to get scary, it was silent in the movie until the front door had a  knock making everyone jump

“Y'all really fucking jumped”Ramirez said opening the front door, we all chuckled. The boys all dabbed each other up, before everyone was either sitting on the couch or on the floor Infront of it.

We watched movies, and talked before of course I had to open my big mouth. “I miss Gus” I said softly, Ruby rubbed the side of my face.

“Me too” Kevin said softly, “Me three” Nick said, “The fuck I say me fourth, I think we all do go be honest.” Ruby said. “Even if we don't show it” Ruby added, looking over at Scrim. Scrim nodded.

“See now it's all stuffy and emotional” Slim said making all of us chuckle.

We watched movies for the rest of that night until we all crashed around 5 am on that couch.

I woke up that next morning, Slim had his head on Kevin, Soon someone was knocking on Scrims front door. Which made everyone sit up, hoodlums

I thought to myself, shaking my head, Scrim got up and opened his front door. Looking back at Ruby before stepping out the door and shutting it behind him

I looked at Ruby and He shrugged, until you could hear Scott's Gun go off which made everyone jump up off the couch.

Ruby jumped up the fastest, and he opened the front door. Scott was just standing there with his gun in his hand, “Shit, you good bro?” Ruby asked and Scrim nodded.

“Fuck happened?” Ramirez Asked Scott, Scott just shook his head and Ramirez nodded.

Ruby took the gun out of Scrim's hand, clicking the safety back on. “You alright?” Ruby asked. It was almost like Scott Froze, Just Froze.

Scott was froze.

Ruby looked at me and I shooed the boys back inside so it was just me and Scrim, I say my hand on his back, my other hand was on his chest.

His hand went to my wrist, he held it before he hugged me.

“I feel like shit” He told me softly, “I'm sorry baby.. I'm here, were all here for you Scott” I told him.

“I love you” he told me softly, “I love you too Scott” I told him.

A few hours later we were all sitting on the couch, “Wait a damn minute” I said softly interrupting the silence, “who the fuck watching my dawg” I asked making Ruby and Scrim chuckle “I'm pretty sure Shake is” Ruby told me

“Nigg.. Is he or is he not” I said softly, “He is girl damn” Ruby said making me hit him in his arm.

“Girls don't start fighting” Kevin said making all of us chuckle, I hated moments when everyone was getting along, because I knew it wouldn't last long.

I got up, off the couch. “Where u going?” Scott asked me I ignored him walking away to his room. “Oh okay, that's fine” Scott said softly after I walked away which made Ruby chuckle.

I walked into his room, grabbing my bag and my keys to my car, thanks to Ruby for driving it over.

“Ay where you going?” Kevin asked, “Home, why?” I asked “Can I ride” Kevin said and I nodded, he dabbed up Nick and Scott Saying bye.

Me and him walked out to my car, I tossed my bag Into the backseat. “Where you tryna go?” I asked Kevin, “Just drop me off at da hotel” he told me.

I dropped him off at his hotel, then drove home. Pulling into my driveway, I walked into my house and Shakewell was sitting on the couch with blue.

“This is such a weird scene” I say which made Shake chuckle, “Hey” I said dabbing him up and hugging him. “Hey, I was actually finna head out” he told me “well shit, it's nice to see you” I said

“Course, I'll see you kid” he told me which made me shake my head and chuckle as he left.

I laid down on the couch, finally home.