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-Cobain.

For the rest of that night, Scott and Me sat together in my hotel room.

I had my head laid on his back as he was asleep laid out on my bed, I was on my phone.

It was quiet in the room until my phone pinged with a notification.

Ari:"we have to talk,come see me"

I didn't reply back, I just got up off Scotts back walking to Ruby's Hotel room.

I knocked on the door, after a minute he answered it. I sighed, rubbing my eyes to hide how puffy they were from crying.

"I'm sorry" he said softly, I shrugged as he stepped aside, I walked into his hotel room and sat down on his bed.

"why do you wanna talk, it's clear that you're upset" I said, "Because were adults Angel, if you're gonna have my kid then we have to communicate" He said.

"Then why'd you walk away?" I ask, "Because I had to process it, I wasn't expecting it" he told me

"Yeah I know but.." I said softly getting cut off, "I'm still tryna wrap my head around it, I wasn't expecting a kid, I didn't want a kid Angel"he said

"I know, I know you didn't, I didn't either, plus your career is just starting to pop off and I don't want you to stop just because you're gonna be a dad" I said,

"Yeah but so is yours, and the tour just started baby.." he said.

We both got silent, "are you worried?" I asked, "Very, very. I don't want my kid to know I'm a bad person" he said.

"I don't think your a bad person" I said, "Yes I am" He said, "How?" I asked softly.

"I'm a murder angel" he said

"I forgot about that" I said,

He nodded.

"are you sure you wanna have a kid Angel, because it's up to you baby" he said and I nodded.

And that was the end of that conversation.

Never again was there another question.

"Yes Aristos I want to have your kid" I told him.

For the next few weeks of tour it wasn't brought up,

No one knew besides, Scott,Ari and Kevin.

Me and Ruby decided it'd be better to keep it to ourselves and away from the Internet until it got obvious.

Ari and I were sitting in the hotel room, it was a few more hours until a show, I didn't really want to perform that night because I felt so sick.

"Ari" I said softly, he wasn't paying attention to me at all.

"Aristos!" I said softly, "Huh? Oh shit, yes baby?" He asked. "Do I have to perform?" I asked, "No not if you dont wanna, why? You ok?" He asked.

"I feel so sick" I said, "Yeah I can tell Mami your pale" he said, and I nodded. He held his arms out for me and I laid with my head in his chest.

"You sure your okay?" He asked, "Yes im fine" I said, me and Ari laid their for another hour until it was time to perform.

We got up and I got dressed, since I was in pajamas all day now.

I got dressed, staring at myself in the mirror, completely lost in thoughts.

"Angel" Aristos called my name a few times, "Angel?" He said softly, resting his hand on my hip.

"Sorry, I was thinking" I said, "I can tell, C'mon baby" He said as we walked out of the hotel.

I sat down with Scott, as we pulled up to the venue looking at the lines and lines of people.

I smiled softly,

"All those people just for y'all" I said softly, "Yeah and you too" Scott said and I shrugged.

"Mainly y'all" I said as we walked off the bus, we walked inside.

Scrim dabbed everybody up and Ruby did aswell,

We stood backstage, doing Sound checks, after awhile I walked out on stage to stand with Meth at the back of the stage.

"You know the got Tracy performing?" Meth said, "Peeps bestie? No I didn't" I say and he nodded.

After awhile, Tracy came out on stage.

"As you all know, I lost a good friend of mine, Meth, drop that" he said turning to meth as he dropped some of Peeps songs in tribute to him.

First, Ghost boy started playing,

And I started singing along, it was my favorite. God I missed him so fucking bad.

"breaking my bones, you breaking my bones you want me to line my wrist" me and meth started singing together

Meth gave me a side hug, Tracy played a few of Peeps songs until Cobain came on.

And Tracy put the mic down, and the whole place went dark.

I looked at meth who I could kind of see from the lights on the DJ stand,

I could see someone pick the mic up,

And when the lights came back on my heart fell into my stomach.

I couldn't breathe, my world fucking stopped for a whole minute until he started singing the lyrics.

"y'all sing that shit for my nigga peep"Tracy said with a smile, dabbing Gus up.

"I just fell in love with a bad bitch," Gus started singing and me and Meth looked at eachother and we could see the Anxiety and Spurr of emotions in our mind.

We watched him perform until Tracy's part started and Gus walked over to me and hugged me and kissed my cheek.

"I'm sorry" he said, "For what? Not dying?"I said hugging him back until he walked back over to the front of the stage to start off again.

Gus wasnt dead. He wasnt dead?

For the rest of their set, me and meth didn't say anything to each other until Scrim and Ruby came out on stage and dabbed up Gus

"how you been doing?" Ruby asked Gus, "Good, What's up Scott?" Gus said dabbing up Scrim.

"You guys knew?" I asked, "Yeah we knew, it was for his protection, I'm sorry Baby" Scott said, Dabbing up Tracy and hugging him.

Me and meth looked at each other and just shook our heads,

Soon the boys started there set, Gus walked over to us and stood there with us.

He wasn't dead.