# 𝕯𝙀𝘼𝘿 𝘽𝙍𝘼𝙄𝙉, sakamoto days. ( ✓ )

( .ᐟ ) 𝗦𝗜𝗫 𝗠𝗜𝗡𝗨𝗧𝗘𝗦, six

TODAY WASN'T ANY SPECIAL occasions, this was one of the rare days where I managed to take a break from killing and running errands for Uzuki. I admit that it was my choice to join him but I never assumed that it would be such a headache sometimes.

I laid under the clear, azure sky. Nothing was bothering me and even the sun was smiling down at me.

That was at least the case until I felt someone loom over me like a parasite waiting for the blood of their host.

"Gaku move aside, you're blocking the sun." I complained with my eyes still closed, I could tell that it was him by the way the smell entered my nostrils.

There was nobody but Gaku who had that light scent of mint — it fitted his cold and yet relaxed aura. "Sorry." I didn't want an apology and wordlessly offered the place beside me.

"Do you like peace?" Gaku suddenly asked, he was asking a lot of things recently. "Yeah it's relaxing." This is why Kumanomi probably always told me to put the killing aside but I was as stubborn as a rock.

Gaku wasn't good at leading conversations between us so I just often led them. "Why did you befriend me at the orphanage?" Truth to be told, I was curious about many things related to Gaku. I couldn't tell if he had a positive or negative view of.

"Because I liked you." I nearly choked on my spit after hearing that and scrambled up from my laying pose to look at Gaku. "If you say things like that I might misunderstand it." I hastily explained despite feeling happy by that comment.

But I wasn't sure if the feeling was exactly mutual between us. Gaku opened his mouth for a second but closed it again.

"What if I truly mean them though?" Gaku buried his face between his arms and looked into the city. We were currently sitting in a tall building somewhere near the hideout.

He knew that I enjoyed places where the sun greets me the most. "You mean as a friend then." I looked away because I suddenly felt scared for a response.

I didn't want him to agree.

Luckily Gaku didn't say anything, which gave me mixed feelings. "Can you tell me more about yourself?"

"About myself?" I repeated stupidly and Gaku nodded, there wasn't much about me. I couldn't remember anything before the orphanage — I can't even confidently say that I have parents.

But even if I did have them, they're dead to me now. No matter what their excuse would be I wouldn't understand why someone would send their child to a place like that.

"I like to believe in myths I guess?" Gaku knew a lot about me and in all honesty, I should be the one asking him about stuff.

"Like what for example?"

I thought for a second because I couldn't find a story on the spot but then I suddenly remembered one of the kids at the orphanage telling me about a fairytale that they read once.

"Did you know that your brain lives for 7 more minutes after you die? Apparently it replays your fav moments." I wonder what my memories would be. Gaku didn't seem so interested in that so I switched up topics to something that he was more familiar with.

We talked a lot that day and I was surprised that Gaku knew that many words.

I was jealous of other people.

Not because of their abilities or anything but because Gaku talked to them — even if it was about causing troubles.

Did Gaku behave this way with me because he knew me the longest and didn't find much between us to talk about? I seriously wanted to cut open his head and see what was going on inside.

I sighed heavily and Gaku turned confused at me. "Is something wrong?" I shook my head since it was useless to tell him about my worries. There was a bigger chance that I'd make a fool out of myself in front of him.

Gaku never showed any particular interest in me but I felt like he favored me above certain people, which was a good thing I suppose.

I will never find out what he's thinking and that's perhaps my biggest problem. Gaku probably wouldn't turn down if I made any moves on him but I also wasn't sure if he'd openly accept them.

It made me realize how little I knew about him.

Was I a sad excuse of a friend?

Gaku was my first love and I'm not sure if I can love anyone else after I met this fool. I'd most likely project Gaku onto someone else to satisfy my greedy desires.

"By the way M/n, Kei asked us to find something."

"What about it?"

"I forgot, I just know he asked to look for something." I gave Gaku a dumbfounded look. "Shouldn't she go ask what we're supposed to find then?"

"Maybe." Gaku played it off.

"On second thought — I'm too lazy for this right now." I fell on my back again and closed my eyes.

"M/n stop sleeping again, you always sleep."

"So what about it?" I was a little annoyed because I was seriously tired. I can't really say that my sleeping schedule is the best.

"Get up."

"Nooo."

"Yes."

"Nope."

"Yes."

"Nuh uh." The useless talking went back and forth like a bomb that waited to explode and Gaku finally gave in. "But don't blame me if Kei scolds you."

"He would never." He would.

Now we were both out of things to talk about and I can't say that I didn't enjoy this moment with Gaku.

I'm sure that if I ever die this memory would reappear in my thoughts. Why? Because this was one of the only moments where I felt like I had a genuine conversation with my first love.

The first love that couldn't stop giving me mixed signals.