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Growing Pains

I've had many friends

Left a lot of them too.

But none have ever really hurt me like you.

We met in seventh grade

And we were best friends instantly.

We thought we would last forever

Planned to move in together.

I saw your mother as my own.

Mom #2 in my phone.

You were the first person I ever had sexual relations with.

The only person I've ever been high with.

The platonic love we had for each other couldn't be rivaled

We were soulmates.

But then you moved away

We still talked

Almost everyday.

But then you started hanging out with other people more

But then you started ignoring my calls

But then, after four years of devoted friendship,

Suddenly, I wasn't your number one.

But your addiction to drugs and alcohol getting worse and worse

It wasn't just weed anymore.

It was meth.

It was cocaine.

You're only a teenager!

You have a life ahead of you!

We had a life ahead of us, together!

It had gotten to the point that everytime we talked you were drunk

Or high

Or both.

Your brain was so fried

You couldn't even remember when I told you I was sexually assaulted.

You couldn't remember anything

You couldn't remember anything I told you.

I always knew I attracted broken people.

Whether is was due to my savior complex, or the fact that I too, was broken

But you were the most broken of them all.

I couldn't fix you, no matter how hard I tried.

Eventually, I couldn't handle it anymore.

I had to, like many before you, cut you out.

Out of my life

Forever.

I still miss you

Even though you weren't good for me

No one else has filled the hole you left

The hole from our better times.

No one has been as good as a friend as you had been.

Like I said, we were soulmates.

It just happened to be that, in this life, we weren't meant to be.

Maybe in another?

Yes.

In another.