Love Kaleidoscope

Chap. 11

- Ayaan's Pov -

[ New York , USA ]

Kaise batayein
Kyun tujhko chahen
Yaara bata na paayein
Baatein dilon ki
Dekho jo baki
Aake tujhe samjhayein
Tu jaane na..
Tu jaane na

I sat cross-legged on my bed after the hectic though a dull day at office . The dim lamp on the bedside table is the only source of light in the room while Atif Aslam's Playlist playing in my speaker .

Atif Aslam , Kiara's favourite artist , she had made an entire playlist with all his songs which she can literally listen anytime and anywhere . Even I also have that in my phone , which I've been listening since last three weeks though I ain't a fan .

With the song playing, I picked the diary and flipped to a fresh page, noting the date at the top.

Diary

Three weeks since she left and it has already started to feel like a different life .

Missing her is like feeling a part of me wandering elsewhere, searching for the calm only her presence brings.

Entire day I kept thinking about her, but as I know she would be busy in the camp , I simply dropped the idea of calling. Instead I let myself drown in our memories when I remembered those days when she used to get panic attacks and nightmares , because of her past . She'd be so scared and vulnerable, and all I wanted to do was protect her, make sure she was okay. It's like I couldn't stand to see her in pain.

I guess that's when it all started, you know? I wanted to be there for her, to be the one she could lean on. And now, with her away, I feel like I'm missing my purpose somehow.

It's like she's become such a big part of my life that when she's not around,
everything feels off.

Is it supposed to be this hard to miss someone whom you love ?

I set down the pen closing the diary and leaned back against the pillows, closing my eyes , letting the music wash over my mind .

Nigahon mein dekho meri jo hai bas gaya
Woh hai milta tumse hubahu
Jaane teri aankhein
ya baatein thi vajah...
Hue tum jo dil ki aarzu

Tum paas ho ke bhi
Tum aas ho ke bhi
Ehsaas ho ke bhi
Apne nahin.

- Author's Pov -

Flashback: 4 years Ago

[ NYC University ]

It was their Freshers party , for the first year students and Kiara was way too anxious about attending parties, but Elena was the one making her understand that she can't keep fearing things , and she should try to enjoy her university life at least a bit . So eventually Kiara was convinced.

They were standing outside the hall , Elena stepped closer and gently took Kiara's hands in hers knowing what she has been through in the past . She said , "Darling , it's going to be okay. It's just a party, and I'll be with you the whole time. okay?"