The Interpersonal Aspect of My Life

CHAPTER IV - In The Midst of Agony

Kinausap ni Emil si Shirly at inilabas ni Emil ang kaniyang hinanakit, nag-open up, at ipinaliwanag ang kanyang nararamdaman sa kanya.

(Umiiyak si Emil)

"Emil, what happened? Narinig ko yung balita kanina, ikinwento sa akin ng isang kagrupo nila Jush?", tanong ni Shirly na may pagtaka.

"Shirly, I am so sorry, nawala lang ako sa sarili ko kanina", sagot ni Emil.

"Paanong nawala? Ang pagkadinig ko kasi naging violent ka kanina, and sinaktan mo pa si Carmie", sabi ni Shirly.

"Hindi ko alam, bigla nalang ako nawala sa mood and all of a sudden parang I just burst out of nowhere", sabi naman ni Emil.

"Burst out? Emil I have to be honest ha, you are becoming someone na we don't know na, and for me you must act in a way that is professional, nadadala ka sa emotion mo", sabi ni Shirly.

"Shirly I am so sorry, biglaan lang talaga ang nangyari sakin, I just felt like I needed to be alone", sagot naman ni Emil.

"I heard na you did all of that kasi nagseselos ka daw kina Jush at Carmie, pinagbantaan mo pa sila na they were up to something fishy", sabi ni Shirly.

"Pero Shirly they were getting intimate, parang iba ang galawan nila, and do you expect me to just ignore that?", sagot ni Emil.

"Emil, I trust Jush, and so do I trust Carmie, I know na they are responsible and moral people, pero sa how you react, ikaw ang nagiging iba ang galawan, all of a sudden you just seem out of control", sabi ni Shirly kay Emil.

"Shirly I am just trying to protect your relationship with Jush, he's your boyfriend diba?", tugon ni Emil.

"Emil ito lang sasabihin ko sayo, Jush and I have been through ups and downs, and no matter what, we end up together still. All of these are based on love, I know for myself that Jush will not try to disappoint me", sabi ni Shirly.

"Emil alam mo ba why you're becoming this way? Kasi you are drowning for your love kay Jush, hindi mo na siya crush, you are deeply in love with him-kaya ka nagkaka ganyan. Emil as much as possible, try to control your feelings, kasi we may end up doing something bad if we let our emotions and feelings consume us instead us consuming it", dagdag ni Shirly.

"I am deeply, truly apologizing for what I did Shirly. I just wanted to be loved, I have been so lonely to the fact that I desperately need someone to fill the gap in me", sagot naman ni Emil.

"Emil, you can't force love. It may be everywhere but you can't force someone to choose you. Life is an adventure we need to go with the flow, hindi yung kapag may nakita ka, aangkinin mo na. Life is a trial and error state, sometimes to know what's best for us is to try, pero if di keri, we should stop and continue the journey hanggang we end up what we really deserve", sabi ni Shirly.

"I just felt this for the first time kay Jush and I don't know how my feelings for him just suddenly consumed me that I can't seem to control", sabi ni Emil.

"I have experienced din yung nararamdaman mo ngayon. I have also felt that way na I deeply love someone na I feel like I want to be with them, marry them, and just want them for myself. Pero I realized na I was being consumed by my emotions and feelings, I convinced myself to ignore the love I had. And sa magandang palad, as time passes by, nawawala yung feeling na yun. You're just so obsessed kay Jush kaya ka nagkaka ganyan, but trust me Emil, that will fade away and be gone", sabi ni Shirly.