Friends With Benefits Part 1 || G. Cormier

30. I Regret It

This words always bothers me saying that I should tell you this cause I might regret it one day, just as I Regret today

As Gordon was on the verge of revealing the identity of the female lead, his phone rang, disrupting the moment. I turned my gaze away, watching the cars pass by as Gordon engaged in the call. Upon ending the conversation, I looked back at him and inquired, "is everything okay?"

Gordon hesitated before responding, "uh the producer wants to see us again for our celebration" Nodding in understanding, we resumed eating. As we neared the end of our meal and we're about to go home, Gordon began to speak, "[Name] about the fema-" Before he could continue, I cut him off with a laugh, interjecting, "let's head home now, remember the curfew is at 10 pm"

As we're riding our skateboard laughing, I look at him with a tearful eyes and thought to myself,

I know that our story might turns out to be a sad ending, yet all I desire is to make the most of our time together while you are here with me.

How I wish I could say this to someone so I can let my feelings out.. Oh right, you're the someone whom I want to share with

as Gordon and I made our way back to the hotel. Gordon offered to escort me to my room, and as we walked, my eyes fell upon his painting-a captivating depiction of a woman seated on a bench late at night with a beautiful white dress. The vibrant colors and intricate details of his painting left me in awe making me ask, why did he paint me?

As we reached my room, I glanced at Gordon and expressed my gratitude, "thank you for escorting me gordon" He chuckled warmly and replied, "my dad would be mad if I don't escorts you... So, goodnight? "

Lowering my gaze to the floor, I nodded and reciprocated, "Have a goodnight too" Just as I reached for the door, he spoke again, "I like your dress and your necklace. They complement each other perfectly"

I chuckled at his observant comment and replied, "Thank you" Stepping into my room, my reflection in the mirror greeted me, and a sense of contentment washed over me as I said to myself,

Finally, a compliment that I want to here again, him appreciating the dress he gave me and noticing a small details like my necklace

Upon waking up, I noticed a recent notification from my company announcing a new upcoming teenage series titled "Teen Love." Curious, I clicked to view the image attached and saw a familiar face - Emily, I knew it was her, I couldn't help but notice Gordon's absence from the picture

Rushing outside my room, I swiftly made my way to Gordon's door, knocking urgently. As he opened the door, I entered without hesitation, and Gordon closed the door behind us. Turning to face him, I inquired, "why didn't you take the opportunity to take the main role?" Gordon's response was simple yet profound, "because I didn't want it"

Silently, Gordon walk towards the balcony, and I followed closely behind him

As the door opened, a gentle breeze tousled my hair, and Gordon remarked, "the view is so mesmerizing, isn't it?" I turned to him, pressing once more, "gordon why didn't you take the opportunity?"

Gordon paused, meeting my gaze with a sense of honesty and clarity, "because you were not the girl who I want to do this with" His words hung in the air, revealing a deeper truth behind his decision and stirring a mix of emotions within me.

Curiously, I pressed further, "but what about the role?" Gordon chuckled softly, his eyes reflecting a sense of certainty, "the role didn't matter when I knew you will not by my side"

Turning my gaze to a bird soaring in the sky, I encouraged Gordon, "Go take the main role, gordon. Emily is not just anyone, she's your first love and you know her more than anyone"

Lying on the bed in my room, I let my thoughts swirl and emotions simmer within me.

Today doesn't feels like yesterday cause when ever what's on my mind I always share them with you, but not anymore

Gazing up at the ceiling, I found it hard to shake off the lingering weight of what had happened earlier. The sound of Gordon conversing with his producer about taking on the lead role echoed in the room that time,

after all had happened I didn't regret why I let gordon took the opportunity, what I Regret the most I because why didn't audition with him, I should have just decline the role that the other producer gave me but I was to late

I will never regret you or say that I'd wish I never met you, because once upon a time, you were exactly what I needed

One day, I will this to someone about what I'm thinking today, not you but someone who might still stay with me

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Change of plans, I'll post this today cause Wednesday and Thursday might be the busiest day for me cause I'm pretty sure we would go back to the hospital again, those doctors are killing me, I don't to come back

this chapter might be short cause I made this last week when I don't have any idea that time and I just made some changes and added this message so that's all byeee pokieess

Ya'll I was thinking if you want me to spoil Meh anyways I think none of you would ask me so byeee pokieeess

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