Loss - A Hu Tao Centered Fic

Loss Update 8

Ello my readers! I come with an Update on Loss!

So, let me first and foremost say this: Loss Chapter 6 has been updated on my Google Docs and is just simply waiting for me to copy and paste into Wattpad and AO3! It's been a while, but two years (almost three) and I finally updated the chapters.

Doesn't seem like the wait was worth it huh? And I bet that when I eventually update Loss to have the other chapters, it may not be worth it. A small fear, but eh, what am I gonna do? Still am a amateur writer who has big plans to make his own book series, but can't even finish writing a fanfic?

Oh well, I lost the time already, and I do hope that I won't waste anymore.

I bet you fellas are waiting for the inevitable "Loss will be a while longer before chapter 7 comes out," sentence, so I won't say it now (I just did a few words ago!)

But that's besides the point, I wanted to be a bit more open with y'all and why Loss hasn't been updated in so long. But if you don't really care about my excuses, go ahead and just find the * * * later in the Update.

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Well, to begin, let's go back to after I uploaded Chapter 6.

At the time, I was writing the chapters for Loss during my Sophomore year of High School. Shocking huh? Now y'all got a rough age for me at the time, and now probably did the math to figure out my current age as of me uploading this "Update!"

I was writing these chapters whenever I had any free time, which was mostly during a 45 minute period during classes where students could catch up on homework. I would write the chapters during that time, and I also had made it a point to upload a chapter once a month then.

Looking back, the only stresses I had then was classes, exams, homework (so school shiz), and the fact I lost one of my best friends. She didn't die, but we had a falling out at the time, where for some reason she called me a stalker and my other friend an abuser. I'm already a very introverted person, and having my best friend call me that was just... heartbreaking.

That was about the time when I started to fall off on writing fanfics. Not that I wrote many to begin with, Loss is actually the first fic of mine that I made more than One Chapter of. I have other fics, but those will forever be private (ha! take that!). Anyways, because of that event, I started to not care as much because I lost a big supporter in my writing. At the time, she was a friend that I knew wouldn't judge me with my writing, and I would constantly send her screenshots of comments, analytics, etc with this fic.

So after we parted ways, I didn't really have that motivator to keep me going. But then soon came the next part of why I didn't do much writing for Loss.

I'm in a discord server where there are other fellow fanfic writers. It's just a server where you can share your works, receive feedback almost instantly, etc. I spent a LOT of time with those peeps because I kinda found a "replacement" if that makes sense. 

As I spent more time with them, I started to write on Loss less and less. Mainly because I tried out Honkai Impact 3rd at the time, and that took ALL my attention. How can I write about Hu Tao and her mental illness of Insomnia and Depression when all I can think about is Kiana and the gang?

Not only that, but in this server, they started this thing where it's a server unique thing that was nicknamed "Mishmash" where we have our OC's in the world of HI3. They typically take the role of the "Captain of the Hyperion" but all of us collectively agreed that the server head would actually be the Captain, while our characters were just "superhuman" that got the attention of Shicksal and the gang too.

There was a section where it was called "Honkai Impact Captainverse Mess" where we started to upload small skits of our OC's and what their current Slice of Life moment is. Then, that turned into a skit where it became this big overarching story with a villain, hero, character arcs, character studies, etc. We even did Threads so we could have our own section where my OC, Grim is doing things with Tesla while my friend's OC is helping Kiana or something.