❝𝙎𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚, 𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜❞
- In which you, a crazy stalker crosses paths with an oddly attractive photographer. -
"Oh, really? I apologize then. You just looked incredibly beautiful and I couldn't resist capturing that moment."
||P.JM...
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"W-what?" you barely even managed to talk.
Jimin felt as if something crushed inside of him seeing how his words made you speechless.
You gaze into his eyes, searching for any trace of humor but all you could find is regret. This is why he's reluctant to tell you, why he tried to keep it hidden.
You managed to stay calm, breathing in yet you could see your vision getting blurry. Tears are about to fall yet you wipe it off, "Tell me more about it." your voice breaks.
Jimin looks at you, hesitating, "I-it's....It's a sex trigger that only a few people can afford it, have.."
Your knees gave out and you found yourself falling to the ground. Jimin quickly dropped the candy and rushed to help you.
"Y/n—"
"H-h-hold on."
You could choose not to believe Jimin.
You could choose not to trust him.
But you can't, because his words make sense after everything you've been through—all because of a candy.
It wasn't butterflies you were feeling, it was the effect before getting high.
It wasn't your heart skipping a beat out of love when you saw him, it was the candy.
It was just a coincidence that you saw him everytime you consumed it.
Love? It wasn't love, it was lust.
You were lusting onto his body.
You were fooled into thinking it was love because you didn't know any better. How could you be this stupid? How could you be so dumb and ignorant? Was it your obsession with loving someone? Was it the jealousy you felt when your friends talked about their crushes and you wanted to have your own story to tell? Was it the greed for love? Was it the candy? Or are you just dumb?
You were obsessed with him, not because of love—love is different from obsession but because of that candy, the one you never stopped eating.
You tricked yourself into thinking it was a stupid young love. Remember how you stayed away from him, still feeling those overwhelming emotions and afraid you would do something you'd regret? It was just the candy. Those butterflies in your stomach, the racing heartbeat, the heat enveloping your body, it was all because of the candy, not love. You feared your own feelings, worried about the power they held over you, but it wasn't real.
It was the candy that kept you in its grip, making you believe in a love that wasn't there.
You stare blankly at the ground, tears streaming down your flushed cheeks. Jimin kneels beside you, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you into a protective embrace. His heart shatters as you remain silent, your sorrow palpable.
He rests his chin gently on top of your head and you instinctively bury your face in his chest, seeking solace.
Jimin holds you tightly, your breathing growing shallow with the silence enveloping you both as he tries to hold onto your pain.
You aren't that naive. Despite your obsession with Wansoo, there were moments when you thought about in suspicion, but not in this way, not this bad.
Perhaps it was your ignorance that led you here. Maybe deep inside, you came to like Wansoo genuinely. The decision to think positively might have put you in this position. Perhaps deep down, you wanted to trust him. It was strange to desire him when you barely knew him that time, but your ignorance made it worse.
Maybe deep down, you were looking for an excuse not to confront the truth. All you could do was blame yourself because even with the hint of what was going on all these years, you never decided to find out what it was—because of your fear of the realization for choosing the wrong decision and the guilt that you'll face after that.
Now you regret asking Jimin. But do you really regret it? Deep down, those were the words you were searching for, the answers that made everything clear.
Even your body had been trying to tell you, warning you with every uneasy feeling.
And yet Wansoo— was all he wanted your body? Is that why he gave you those disgusting candies? Were you also fooled into thinking he might have liked you back? What did he gain from doing this to you?
The realization hits hard, emotions swirling in a storm of confusion and betrayal. You feel a mix of anger and sorrow, the ache of knowing you were deceived. The hope and guilt you had clung to that maybe he felt something for you, crumbles into dust. The pain of understanding, the regret of not seeing it sooner makes your heart ache even more.
You can't help but question everything, feeling lost, hurt and unable to comprehend why Wansoo would manipulate you so cruelly.
Jimin holds you tighter, his arms wrapping securely around you as he hears your sobs and feels your tears soaking his chest. It breaks his heart to see you so devastated, to know that you're feeling such intense pain.
Oh how he wish to take all your worries away.
How he can't bear to see your eyes blink away each tears that fall.
How he longs to kiss every tear rolling down your cheeks.
How he wish to hug you all night and rub all your worries away.
Though he can't possibly imagine the depth of what you're going through, he understands that you need someone right now. He resolves to be there for you for as long as you need it.
"J-jimin.." you whisper, almost to yourself. You hear him hum softly, "w-what did I do wrong..? W-what did I do to deserve this?" you sob as he close his eyes, feeling a tear roll down his cheek, "I-i thought I loved him..I thought I was.." you sob, "H-h-he was just...he was.." you continue, unable to finish your words. You couldn't form the words because you hate to admit it. Admit that Wansoo was only desiring your body, that he can't keep his shit in his pants and was constantly giving you candies to satisfy his desire.
Now you're not sure anymore. What parts of you Wansoo has broken that will change who you are? Will you ever forget this moment? Will you ever be able to look at him the same way again?
Will you ever be able to look at people the same way again?
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[Author Vceria] -Does it look like its rushed? Sorry if it does I'm trying my best to explain how she feels. Imagine consuming candies only for it to be a sex trigger, she would never expect it to be like that :(
