𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗟𝗞𝗘𝗥 | PJM ✓

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✦sʜᴇ ᴡʜɪsᴘᴇʀs ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡɪɴᴅ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴇᴍᴏʀɪᴇs ᴏғ ᴀ ᴘᴀsᴛ sʜᴇ ᴏɴᴄᴇ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴡᴀs ɢᴇɴᴜɪɴᴇ, ᴏɴʟʏ ᴛᴏ ᴅɪsᴄᴏᴠᴇʀ ɪᴛs ғʟᴇᴇᴛɪɴɢ ɴᴀᴛᴜʀᴇ✦

"Ughh..I'm so fucking bored." It's only been a day and all you did was lie down on your bed, scroll on Insta or TikTok, eat, and sleep and you know you wouldn't be able to do this for a week especially since you're used to being busy.

You sigh and decided to take a walk and finally roam around your neighborhood.

I would probably be stalking Wansoo at this time. You scoffed at yourself. It feels like just yesterday that you were eager to find time to stalk him but whenever you see his face even on Insta, your body reacts strangely. There was a time when you tried to stalk him but he was always at his house which confused you.

Whenever you think of Wansoo, your stomach aches and it's starting to bother you. Maybe it's because of the stomach ache the last time you saw him and it's reacting the same way because of the guilt? You don't know so for your own good, you've decided to stop.

Is it always this..fast? You don't know if you should be thankful that you have finally stopped being an obsessed stalker, a habit you've had for years. Shouldn't habits die down more slowly? Should you be worried about how quickly it stopped? Or should you just be grateful that it's over?

But the guilt just keep on getting worse and the pity you have for yourself isn't making it better. You just felt like wasting your life for someone you thought would be the one for you.

You sigh, "It's not like we broke up. It's all your fault Y/n." you roll your eyes at yourself as you walk out of your house, putting your keys on your purse.

It's the first time you're stepping out of the house on a Tuesday for a different reason, eager to explore more about the neighborhood and discover something that has always been there.

You're quite looking forward to your little adventure..

As people pass by with their own agendas, some greet you with a smile and a bow, while others don't. A few are accompanied by their cute pets which you adore and reminding you of Sang's cats.

You spot some familiar faces, some faces you recognize that lives near your house. An old man watering his garden with his wife reading her newspaper making you chuckle, they're like the other way around but you like their peacefulness. Would you be able to end up loving someone until you reach their age? Would you be able to feel free like them? It's not like you're locked up in a pathetic life, you have an ordinary life which some people would wish for but you somehow feel like something is missing. You can't avoid feeling lonely and not free in this harsh reality. But you know you have to live a life and go with the flow in order to survive.

You look around, letting your feet guide you without getting lost. It's actually quite liberating. Sometimes, people should appreciate being alone more as you can judge people by yourself or have fun with yourself and the calmness you're feeling and just make your thoughts on the back of your mind and love the present time—which is what you're feeling right now.

The sun isn't bothering you in the afternoon, people are busy with their own lives and you don't know about theirs just as they don't know about yours. Each person passing might be having their worst day or their luckiest and that's a profound realization.

Somehow, your feet never fail to bring you back to the familiar park, a place etched in your memory.

You notice the familiar huge tree standing a bit further from you.

You freeze momentarily, then start walking towards the green grass where a few little flowers are blooming.

You spot the familiar purple flower a few feet away and you are instantly drawn to it, crouching down to gently touch its petals. It might seem cliché or odd to others, but this flower was the first you ever liked. It's also the same flower you saw before witnessing something heartbreaking near the huge tree, Wansoo and Elissa.

A mix of emotions rushed through you that time—jealousy, sadness and anger. It's your fault tho, you were the one that stalked him. He was never at fault because you were never his to begin with. You were supposed to feel hurt just by the thought of it and it just confirmed even more that it didn't.

Then, just as you were about to throw hands, Jimin stepped in—randomly taking a picture of you—the first day you met him. Maybe if you weren't so down that time, you would sue him but you're thankful that you met him.

If you never met him, would you be able to handle everything?

Somehow, whenever you feel down, he's always there. This park wouldn't hold good memories for you if Jimin hadn't been there.

Meeting Wansoo with his girlfriend and trying to catch his attention wouldn't have happened if Jimin hadn't been there.

You might have been left traumatized and unable to find your way home safely if Jimin hadn't been there to drive you home.

You might have spent countless nights crying alone in your room, sinking into depression over time if Jimin hadn't come and taken you to that special place where you met the cat with the ribbon.

You wouldn't be able to see such beautiful places if Jimin hadn't been there.

It's as if he's meant to be there when you feel like giving up, and somehow he always manages to turn those bad memories into good ones.

How can a person have such impact?

You owe him a big one.

Jimin's a great man.

And that man is your personal photographer, a deal he came up with in return for your silly plan on gaining Wansoo's attention. But you don't have to anymore.

But you feel something sinking in you at the thought of breaking the deal. Maybe you'll wait until the event he's saying ends. But what would happen after that? Would he still continue taking photos of you? I mean Jin forced him to so he'll probably stop after that.. He helped you a lot so you want to repay him for it. You'll continue to be his model until the event ends even if he doesn't have to do it, he's great in taking pictures anyway..

But maybe, deep inside, something within you doesn't want him to stop being there for you. Maybe you secretly don't want this connection to end.

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[Author Vceria]
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